study hard.....

yesterday teacher told us a bad news....
trial exam will be on August....
what!!!!
actually is at September....
don't know what is the reasons.....
haiz....
when i heard this bad news, my eyes was wet...
felt want to cry....
because i not yet prepare well....
for me trial exam is more important than SPM...
because i need that result to apply scholarship...

after think a whole day....
i have a made a decision....
everyday must study....
hard work is the key of success
i have plan a study timetable le oh....
so i will less on9....

one is better than two....
i like the moment when together with friends....
about love....
now is not the suitable time....
just will effect my studies...
n make me cant concentrate....
so temporary say NO to LOVE....
J,i just want say Ti Amero to u....
i know u will understand what i m talking about....
this time may be will be the last time i say that....
that is right.....
this decision will be good to me....
i know i have made the right decision...
yeah.....^^
good luck to myself....

CONCENTRATE STUDY!!!!
TRIAL AND SPM!!!!!!!!!
LESS ONLINE!!!!

stress....

finally i get a chance to updates my blog....
because my exam just over....
actually this few days i want updates my blog....
my mood very down....
but bust prepared for my exam.......
i think i wont get good result.....
because i dint prepare well, when exam also cant concentrate...
haiz....
yesterday having a progressive test at erican.....
i like the test especially the oral test....
but derrick pity oh.....
during the oral test i ask him "stupid" questions....
he was shocked...
he looked at me with his big eyes.....
haha....^^
the time past so fast....
stage 3 is over le...
next lesson is stage 4....
that mean i almost complete my level 4 le.....
that time i also need to say bye bye to erican
but my new life is coming soon....


last friday ah hooi told me about The Sims 3.....
that is my favourite game.......
i love it so much.....
i play that game start from primary school...
but i stopped playing at form 3......
why i have to do so....
because that game is just like my drug....
if that time i dint do so for sure now my result very suck...
yes, i can wait....
wait more 5 months my drug is coming back....
haha...
after SPM i want buy original to install.......
hope in future i can get more The Sims n keep as my collection....


this few days i always think about one thing...
although my face look happy....
but my heart was so blur.....
at first i want say clearly...
i dont have BF....
before that at fb i change my relationship status is because some reasons.....
after i break with u....
i feel that i change a lots....
i dint 100% believe anyone....
sometimes include my family....
i dont want get hurt anymore....
so i choose to believe myself...
before that i believe u any things.....
believe that u wont like other guys hurt me...
but at the end the ending still is the same...
but i never regret...
i still believe u are a good guy...
i dont know what reason make me think that....
thousand of thanks to u....
u let me grow up....
i remember what u said...
ur words always remind me dont repeat the same mistake anymore....
so i will continue grow up...
when together with u, i learn so many things from u....
after break with u, i learn so many lessons from our love....
i know time cant return...
so i dint hope any thing...
just want to say thanks to u....
u made my life full of colour....
our story already past....
i wont turn back i just will look forward....
as u said appreciate what i have now....


突然用华语表达是因为知道你看不懂
所以才故意这么做
我恢复了，可以开开心心过我的生活
但并不代表我放得下你
在我的心里还有你
并不打算把你消除
在未来的日子里你在我心中的地位只会越变越小
但不会消失
一年多的感情不是说要放就放
因为你是第一位让我真的爱上你的人
你是对的人
我相信我是在错的时间遇见对的人
考试前一个星期非常开心
因为和你在fb聊也和你sms
还记得当晚我熬夜做功课
已经很夜了还能和你聊天
真的很开心
感觉当晚好像回到以前
以前我们常常在深夜里聊天
聊到累了就睡得很甜
很久没有那种感觉
就知因为和聊天我就可以非常开心
太天真了吧！
但如果可以保留那天真有多好
我对你还有感觉
但对我而言并不是好事
继续这样只会折磨自己
我会慢慢改变但不是现在
何时呢？
第二个你出现时一切才会变
而第二个你是那可以让我信任和爱他人
几时会出现？会是个怎样的人？我也不知道
我对someone的感觉是怎样
有时候就连我自己也会模糊
他对我的好让我感动和动心
一切顺其自然吧
我会试放下一切，我还需要时间
我们还年轻，慢慢来吧
我不想再重犯同样的错误，不想再受伤害


exam is over le.....
but i still need to do n worry so many things....
especially the camp that make me headache....
haiz....
hope i can handle n settle very well....

shit!!!!!!!

i must get my driving licence in this year....
i want go any where also need to beg them....
sometimes just want go buy some bread or stationery also want beg them....
i hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!
i HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't want beg anyone any more......
i really don't like.....

last night headache n sore throat...
so sleep early....
but before sleep someone make me angry...
that someone dint realize i was angry....
"y should i tell u?"
i don't like this sentence....
when i am serious, pls don't say such sentence to me.....
but last night i angry not because of this....
some thing more worse....
just a word 'sorry' want me forgive u
is so funny....
i need time to cool down....
so at night i will updates my blog...

not enough sleeping time...

from Saturday night until last night...
every night also 2am sleep...
just sleep for 4 hours.....
sometimes just 3 hours...
why i want to do so????
the reason is want to complete all the projects.....
add math project, NIE magazine, collage for school magazine......
tonight also will late sleep....
because not yet complete my project....
although i felt tired but was very happy oh.....
especially last night i received a good news from my friend...
actually is just a small things....
i dint misunderstand the meaning....
i also dint hope any thing....
i also dint think so much....
i just feel happy until now.....
that happiness hard to describe....
but just now a bit disappointed about some thing....
so many people ask me about that someone...
to all my friends, that someone is not my bf.....
he is just my friend....
may be he is a good guys...
he done so many things that made me felt touch....
but.....
if time can turn back,i still will do the same choice..
i still will choose the same thing....
because i know that decision wont make me regret....
forever wont regret...
but nw i just want concentrate study....
i don't want any relationship.....
one of the reason is i dint believe that special relationship will last long....
i don't want to get hurt again.....
and my heart not yet empty....
i can accept the truth....
but i dint forget u......
i will keep my feeling in my heart...
may be in future every things will be change....
but for now i wont change my decision....
i will concentrate study, keep my feeling in my heart.....
continue my happy life.....