bored...

finally trial exam is over....
exam make me very tired...
every night dint sleep well....
i knw this trial exam is very important...
but i dint confident that i can get good result...
when exam my mind was blur...
fist time like this...
haiz...
feel that my scholarship is more far far away from me.....
really hope such thing wont happen...

i can say NO to FB...
bt i wont say NO to my blog....
i don't feel like to log in my fb....
nothing to do.....
just waste my time..
sometimes some more will make no mood....
so i wont do such thing to hurt myself....
friends,u knw that i wont log in my fb until my SPM...
so don't try any way to let me log in...

today dint go to school...
stay at house really very boring....
don't know should do what...
from last night until nw...
very bored....
don't feel like to study because exam just over...
i want relax 3 or 4 day first...
so just nw morning went market with my mum...
come back sleep again...
because nothing to do so just sleep...
don't feel like to online...
everyday just sleep,eat n online...
i don't like such life, very bored...
that why i want January further my studies...
because i don't want after SPM my life become like this...
i sure will bored until crazy...
luckily mum understand me...
so tomorrow go shopping...
yeah, i love shopping...

mum n dad,
i know both of u sure will let me go KL further my studies...
n u prefer me go on March...
but can let me go on January...
i have my reasons...
stay at here will me more suffer n more sad...
i want leave here as fast as possible...
u worry me in many aspect...
i also cant promise that i wont make u worry me...
i dint have confidence
they r so success...
everyone is proud of them...
yes, i cant like them be doctor, lawyer or engineering...
but i want be like them so success in their job...
i don't knw y they can be so success...
if got the chance to learn from them...great...
i don't like look down on me....

theng, that day u asked whether i m not willing or that is true...
at that time i cant answer u...
nw i can say at that moment my mind was nt willing...
bt nw is true....
before that my blog always talk about this fellow...
i don't feel like to talk about this fellow at my blog any more...
i worry this fellow will not happy...
i want this fellow be happy...
sorry,if before that my action make this fellow unhappy...