nw my mood is very worst
feel very angry....
what is going on with my leg...
very pain, cant walk....
tomorrow still have go to star walk....
i want go to clinic....
but i dont knw should tell her or him....
morning i told her....
she just simply answered me paste the Salonpas
what????
i really feel disappointed....
sometimes i feel that i m transparent at this house....
haiz.....
i feel very not fair.....
now walk to toilet also is a problem...
just nw still ask me go every where do this do that...
nw my leg is pain more serious....
very angry.......
feel like throwing something.....
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
exam....
SPM will start on next week...
last week still feel relax...
dint have any stress....
still keep watching TV...
today also same....
bt i still arrange the time to study....
bt nw more stress le....
i must feel a bit relax....
don't too stress....
this is the only way can perform will during exam...
hope i can do it oh...
tomorrow must go to school...
haiz...
hope my hair will be safe....
last week i cut my hair...
bt i still feel a bit long....
God must bless me....
yesterday went to Sunway Carnival Mall....
enjoy New Zealand Nature ice cream...
really very nice....
the ice cream cheer me up....
is getting ready for the exam...
i m crazy....
bla....bla....black sheep.....
bla bla bla bla........
...........................
.................
last week still feel relax...
dint have any stress....
still keep watching TV...
today also same....
bt i still arrange the time to study....
bt nw more stress le....
i must feel a bit relax....
don't too stress....
this is the only way can perform will during exam...
hope i can do it oh...
tomorrow must go to school...
haiz...
hope my hair will be safe....
last week i cut my hair...
bt i still feel a bit long....
God must bless me....
yesterday went to Sunway Carnival Mall....
enjoy New Zealand Nature ice cream...
really very nice....
the ice cream cheer me up....
is getting ready for the exam...
i m crazy....
bla....bla....black sheep.....
bla bla bla bla........
...........................
.................
Saturday, October 30, 2010
complicated...
i passed my car test n get my license le....
is a good news...
happy?
yes,i just happy for few minutes....
because i realize something....
what is that?
that is a secret...
i also dint tell anyone...
i cant tell anyone....
also because i dint tell anyone so i m sad for few days....
first time have such feeling...
very special n complicated...
hard to describe....
haiz.....
my parent had made a decision for me....
but i was disappointed with the decision...
can i reject them...
they don't allow me to go KL study on January....
they said i must wait until April...
i really don't like this decision
but what can i do....
i have to follow what they said...
if not i really will loss the chance go to that college study....
ok,i wait....
mum want me go Singapore...
i knw what is she thinking about...
hope xuan can go....
nw i m very tired
just came back from 2 seminal
my heart also tired....
this few day when i was sad, i don't feel like to talk with anyone...
very stress...
SPM is just around the corner....
my preparation not yet well...
haiz...
very worry...
dreaming also dream about exam....
haiz....
is a good news...
happy?
yes,i just happy for few minutes....
because i realize something....
what is that?
that is a secret...
i also dint tell anyone...
i cant tell anyone....
also because i dint tell anyone so i m sad for few days....
first time have such feeling...
very special n complicated...
hard to describe....
haiz.....
my parent had made a decision for me....
but i was disappointed with the decision...
can i reject them...
they don't allow me to go KL study on January....
they said i must wait until April...
i really don't like this decision
but what can i do....
i have to follow what they said...
if not i really will loss the chance go to that college study....
ok,i wait....
mum want me go Singapore...
i knw what is she thinking about...
hope xuan can go....
nw i m very tired
just came back from 2 seminal
my heart also tired....
this few day when i was sad, i don't feel like to talk with anyone...
very stress...
SPM is just around the corner....
my preparation not yet well...
haiz...
very worry...
dreaming also dream about exam....
haiz....
Thursday, October 14, 2010
sushi sushi....
nw i m very blur...
my feeling is very complicated n blur....
what is going with me....
i feel want to cry....
i knw my mood down because of the same reason with yesterday....
i still cant use to it....
is great has the opportunity to meet with them
but if dint meet them...
no need separate...
n i wont feel sad....
i knw i should feel lucky meet with them...
i also should appreciate...
bt knw i really cant cool down...
i need help...
just nw i want tell xuan about this...
i hope she can cheer me up
but just nw i saw her...
i dint have that feeling...
bt when i m alone...
i m very not ok....
haiz...
just nw evening went to sushi king with xuan,xuan's sister,hong n yu
just nw also went to sushi king with family
my tea time n dinner time also at there....
when c the sushi, feel hate oh...
so i just ate a bit.....
don't feel like to talk any more....
my feeling is very complicated n blur....
what is going with me....
i feel want to cry....
i knw my mood down because of the same reason with yesterday....
i still cant use to it....
is great has the opportunity to meet with them
but if dint meet them...
no need separate...
n i wont feel sad....
i knw i should feel lucky meet with them...
i also should appreciate...
bt knw i really cant cool down...
i need help...
just nw i want tell xuan about this...
i hope she can cheer me up
but just nw i saw her...
i dint have that feeling...
bt when i m alone...
i m very not ok....
haiz...
just nw evening went to sushi king with xuan,xuan's sister,hong n yu
just nw also went to sushi king with family
my tea time n dinner time also at there....
when c the sushi, feel hate oh...
so i just ate a bit.....
don't feel like to talk any more....
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
no ending...
just now went to driving practical...
while waiting for go back home, i think a lot of things.....
until now i still thinking...
so now i m a bit down....
may be for those who are working think that is a small case...
i believe everyone also will face it in one day...
but i m still a kid...
i just starting exposed to such thing...
so is still 'fresh' n make me down...
so many peoples come to my life n good to me...
but just for temporary...
they have to leave me...
when close to them or have fun with them....
the happiness will come to the end n they left me...
especially this year, i always face such kind of thing...
i very not willing to separate with them
there are a lot of memories between us...
so i feel sad....
one of the example....
last Sunday is last time went to Erican language centre...
my SPM is around the corner so i have to stop...
n i wont go there anymore...
the moment when i left, i felt like to cry but i dint do so...
there are the friendship between us...
memories n happiness with teacher n friends...
i will miss them...
haiz...
next week n this month end also will have some peoples are good to me will leave me....
i have no choices...
they also same....
i hope the time stop for few minutes or past slowly....
is just a wish...
i always appreciate the moment when together with them....
my mind always remind me what u had told me before that...
always appreciate what u have....
if every thing wont come to the end or have happy ending....
i will be very happy....
separate with them make me feel that every thing is end...
no more contact with them....
yes,i can sms or online chat with them...
but that are some reasons stop me to do so...
one of the reason is some of them are older than me ....
some of them are really old, everyone also call them UNCLE...
uncle dint on9 n sms is not easy for them...
still have other reasons...
haiz....
no ending in my life is perfect...
while waiting for go back home, i think a lot of things.....
until now i still thinking...
so now i m a bit down....
may be for those who are working think that is a small case...
i believe everyone also will face it in one day...
but i m still a kid...
i just starting exposed to such thing...
so is still 'fresh' n make me down...
so many peoples come to my life n good to me...
but just for temporary...
they have to leave me...
when close to them or have fun with them....
the happiness will come to the end n they left me...
especially this year, i always face such kind of thing...
i very not willing to separate with them
there are a lot of memories between us...
so i feel sad....
one of the example....
last Sunday is last time went to Erican language centre...
my SPM is around the corner so i have to stop...
n i wont go there anymore...
the moment when i left, i felt like to cry but i dint do so...
there are the friendship between us...
memories n happiness with teacher n friends...
i will miss them...
haiz...
next week n this month end also will have some peoples are good to me will leave me....
i have no choices...
they also same....
i hope the time stop for few minutes or past slowly....
is just a wish...
i always appreciate the moment when together with them....
my mind always remind me what u had told me before that...
always appreciate what u have....
if every thing wont come to the end or have happy ending....
i will be very happy....
separate with them make me feel that every thing is end...
no more contact with them....
yes,i can sms or online chat with them...
but that are some reasons stop me to do so...
one of the reason is some of them are older than me ....
some of them are really old, everyone also call them UNCLE...
uncle dint on9 n sms is not easy for them...
still have other reasons...
haiz....
no ending in my life is perfect...
Monday, October 4, 2010
sad........
today went to school was very bored....
also made me sad....
some of my result is getting more worse n worse....
i felt very disappointed n sad....
don't feel like to cry...
just don't want talk....
but i dint do it in front of my friends....
i should be happy in front of them....
so i just keep my feeling until nw....
haiz.....
everyone told me that still have SPM so dont gives up...
i knw n i wont gives up....
bt i hope someone can score me n wake me up....
i wish nw i can talk with u.......
i knw ur words will wake me up...
this is just a wish....
n i wont do so....
one person unhappy is better than 2 person unhappy....
i will study hard....
i wont let my dream control me n my life...
i will control my dream.....
the feeling is hard to describe....
dont feel like to talk...
night...
also made me sad....
some of my result is getting more worse n worse....
i felt very disappointed n sad....
don't feel like to cry...
just don't want talk....
but i dint do it in front of my friends....
i should be happy in front of them....
so i just keep my feeling until nw....
haiz.....
everyone told me that still have SPM so dont gives up...
i knw n i wont gives up....
bt i hope someone can score me n wake me up....
i wish nw i can talk with u.......
i knw ur words will wake me up...
this is just a wish....
n i wont do so....
one person unhappy is better than 2 person unhappy....
i will study hard....
i wont let my dream control me n my life...
i will control my dream.....
the feeling is hard to describe....
dont feel like to talk...
night...
Sunday, October 3, 2010
love shopping
yesterday was a happy day....
no need wake up early to study...
so relax....
always laugh because the show very funny....
afternoon went shopping...
it was my lovely time....
mum bought a platinum necklace for me....
this was mum second time bought necklace for me...
my first necklace was broken n missing because of my careless
first time mum bought necklace when i was form 2
at that time i still don't know the price of necklace...
so i was thought around RM2XX++
until yesterday i only knw that the price is triple with what i thought...
at that time i was shock...
i felt sorry for my careless...
but mum still bought for me....
that idiot said gold is more valuable...
i knw gold is more valuable...
n the price will rise in future....
but nw i m too young...
gold is not suitable for my age...
after that went to eat ikan bakar....
woo...love it so much....
when exam, i always kacau my mum that i want eat ikan bakar n tomyam...
but that time i was exam...
worry when exam i will stomachache...
finally i got it....
so full....
my happy n enjoyable moment not yet come to the end...
went to gurney shopping....
they know i don't like go queensbay mall so went to gurney...
the happy moment was just began...
went to the Korean food fair n bought a lot of food.....
before that i worked at Korean restaurant....
so i get addicted with Korean food...
especially Kim chi soup...
mum also bought a dress for me....
uncle said yesterday i was so lucky....
not yet exam already get present...
yes, i felt happy n lucky....
one day before exam i also went shopping with my family...
mum also bought a dress for me...
i really love that dress...
i look for the dress so long...
finally i get it....
nowadays i always buy dress....
because i love it n will make me confident.....
mum,thousand of thanks to u...
u bought me a lot of things....
just now morning was oral test...
also can say as presentation....
i was not so happy with my performance....
it was just ok...
i think last time is better.....
i will improve n make it perfect....
haiz....
no need wake up early to study...
so relax....
always laugh because the show very funny....
afternoon went shopping...
it was my lovely time....
mum bought a platinum necklace for me....
this was mum second time bought necklace for me...
my first necklace was broken n missing because of my careless
first time mum bought necklace when i was form 2
at that time i still don't know the price of necklace...
so i was thought around RM2XX++
until yesterday i only knw that the price is triple with what i thought...
at that time i was shock...
i felt sorry for my careless...
but mum still bought for me....
that idiot said gold is more valuable...
i knw gold is more valuable...
n the price will rise in future....
but nw i m too young...
gold is not suitable for my age...
after that went to eat ikan bakar....
woo...love it so much....
when exam, i always kacau my mum that i want eat ikan bakar n tomyam...
but that time i was exam...
worry when exam i will stomachache...
finally i got it....
so full....
my happy n enjoyable moment not yet come to the end...
went to gurney shopping....
they know i don't like go queensbay mall so went to gurney...
the happy moment was just began...
went to the Korean food fair n bought a lot of food.....
before that i worked at Korean restaurant....
so i get addicted with Korean food...
especially Kim chi soup...
mum also bought a dress for me....
uncle said yesterday i was so lucky....
not yet exam already get present...
yes, i felt happy n lucky....
one day before exam i also went shopping with my family...
mum also bought a dress for me...
i really love that dress...
i look for the dress so long...
finally i get it....
nowadays i always buy dress....
because i love it n will make me confident.....
mum,thousand of thanks to u...
u bought me a lot of things....
just now morning was oral test...
also can say as presentation....
i was not so happy with my performance....
it was just ok...
i think last time is better.....
i will improve n make it perfect....
haiz....
Friday, October 1, 2010
bored...
finally trial exam is over....
exam make me very tired...
every night dint sleep well....
i knw this trial exam is very important...
but i dint confident that i can get good result...
when exam my mind was blur...
fist time like this...
haiz...
feel that my scholarship is more far far away from me.....
really hope such thing wont happen...
i can say NO to FB...
bt i wont say NO to my blog....
i don't feel like to log in my fb....
nothing to do.....
just waste my time..
sometimes some more will make no mood....
so i wont do such thing to hurt myself....
friends,u knw that i wont log in my fb until my SPM...
so don't try any way to let me log in...
today dint go to school...
stay at house really very boring....
don't know should do what...
from last night until nw...
very bored....
don't feel like to study because exam just over...
i want relax 3 or 4 day first...
so just nw morning went market with my mum...
come back sleep again...
because nothing to do so just sleep...
don't feel like to online...
everyday just sleep,eat n online...
i don't like such life, very bored...
that why i want January further my studies...
because i don't want after SPM my life become like this...
i sure will bored until crazy...
luckily mum understand me...
so tomorrow go shopping...
yeah, i love shopping...
mum n dad,
i know both of u sure will let me go KL further my studies...
n u prefer me go on March...
but can let me go on January...
i have my reasons...
stay at here will me more suffer n more sad...
i want leave here as fast as possible...
u worry me in many aspect...
i also cant promise that i wont make u worry me...
i dint have confidence
they r so success...
everyone is proud of them...
yes, i cant like them be doctor, lawyer or engineering...
but i want be like them so success in their job...
i don't knw y they can be so success...
if got the chance to learn from them...great...
i don't like look down on me....
theng, that day u asked whether i m not willing or that is true...
at that time i cant answer u...
nw i can say at that moment my mind was nt willing...
bt nw is true....
before that my blog always talk about this fellow...
i don't feel like to talk about this fellow at my blog any more...
i worry this fellow will not happy...
i want this fellow be happy...
sorry,if before that my action make this fellow unhappy...
exam make me very tired...
every night dint sleep well....
i knw this trial exam is very important...
but i dint confident that i can get good result...
when exam my mind was blur...
fist time like this...
haiz...
feel that my scholarship is more far far away from me.....
really hope such thing wont happen...
i can say NO to FB...
bt i wont say NO to my blog....
i don't feel like to log in my fb....
nothing to do.....
just waste my time..
sometimes some more will make no mood....
so i wont do such thing to hurt myself....
friends,u knw that i wont log in my fb until my SPM...
so don't try any way to let me log in...
today dint go to school...
stay at house really very boring....
don't know should do what...
from last night until nw...
very bored....
don't feel like to study because exam just over...
i want relax 3 or 4 day first...
so just nw morning went market with my mum...
come back sleep again...
because nothing to do so just sleep...
don't feel like to online...
everyday just sleep,eat n online...
i don't like such life, very bored...
that why i want January further my studies...
because i don't want after SPM my life become like this...
i sure will bored until crazy...
luckily mum understand me...
so tomorrow go shopping...
yeah, i love shopping...
mum n dad,
i know both of u sure will let me go KL further my studies...
n u prefer me go on March...
but can let me go on January...
i have my reasons...
stay at here will me more suffer n more sad...
i want leave here as fast as possible...
u worry me in many aspect...
i also cant promise that i wont make u worry me...
i dint have confidence
they r so success...
everyone is proud of them...
yes, i cant like them be doctor, lawyer or engineering...
but i want be like them so success in their job...
i don't knw y they can be so success...
if got the chance to learn from them...great...
i don't like look down on me....
theng, that day u asked whether i m not willing or that is true...
at that time i cant answer u...
nw i can say at that moment my mind was nt willing...
bt nw is true....
before that my blog always talk about this fellow...
i don't feel like to talk about this fellow at my blog any more...
i worry this fellow will not happy...
i want this fellow be happy...
sorry,if before that my action make this fellow unhappy...
Sunday, September 5, 2010
great surprise....
today is a happy day....
in the morning, i was tired n a bit sad....
because i not yet receive ur message...
after came back from tuition...
rest for awhile....
yeah, finally ming n chen come to my house....
thanks to them for their helping....
after that we went out to met other friends to celebrate my birthday....
thanks to all my lovely friends n those who had wish me....
i dint expect any present from u guys....
i must say u all very clever "cheat" me n my tear....
my tear is very valuable...jk
never think that i will cry in front of u all...
shy oh...
yes, as u said...
this is my most memorable birthday party....
i felt touch
chen, thanks for ur jelly n ur "heart"
ming,chen,mooi,xuan,ban,hooi,panda,hong n por....
really thank you...
although our trial is coming soon....
but u still spent ur time to enjoy with me n make surprise for me...
J,i must thanks to u...
i know i had said so much thanks to u...
but i have to do so....
i was a bit disappointed that u cant attend my birthday party...
but u "appear" for awhile....
n i felt happy n touch for ur surprise...
never think that u will do so....
not just thanks for ur surprise....
i also want thanks that u still remember my birthday...
compare to the clothes that u gave me before....
this surprise given by u is the more valuable n memorable..jkjk^^
don't be worry....
i wont think so much n will always be happy....
after today i will concentrate study n get good result
i wont make u all disappointed....
good luck for ur exam...
n PLS take care ur health...
just nw when make a wish....
i dint make wish for myself....
i made a wish for u.....
don't think i m stupid...
because i knew as long as u happy then i will happy....
yes, my dream is very important...
but ur happiness is more important....
my dream wont be true also never mind as long as u feel happy....
don't misunderstand that i think too much....
i dint...
lastly thanks so much to my lovely friends....
don't compare the present...
all the presents are very valuable n memorable for me....
i will appreciate it so much....
i don't want any bald old guy...
i just want my friends...
friend forever...
i love u all....^^
happy birthday to myself.....
in the morning, i was tired n a bit sad....
because i not yet receive ur message...
after came back from tuition...
rest for awhile....
yeah, finally ming n chen come to my house....
thanks to them for their helping....
after that we went out to met other friends to celebrate my birthday....
thanks to all my lovely friends n those who had wish me....
i dint expect any present from u guys....
i must say u all very clever "cheat" me n my tear....
my tear is very valuable...jk
never think that i will cry in front of u all...
shy oh...
yes, as u said...
this is my most memorable birthday party....
i felt touch
chen, thanks for ur jelly n ur "heart"
ming,chen,mooi,xuan,ban,hooi,panda,hong n por....
really thank you...
although our trial is coming soon....
but u still spent ur time to enjoy with me n make surprise for me...
J,i must thanks to u...
i know i had said so much thanks to u...
but i have to do so....
i was a bit disappointed that u cant attend my birthday party...
but u "appear" for awhile....
n i felt happy n touch for ur surprise...
never think that u will do so....
not just thanks for ur surprise....
i also want thanks that u still remember my birthday...
compare to the clothes that u gave me before....
this surprise given by u is the more valuable n memorable..jkjk^^
don't be worry....
i wont think so much n will always be happy....
after today i will concentrate study n get good result
i wont make u all disappointed....
good luck for ur exam...
n PLS take care ur health...
just nw when make a wish....
i dint make wish for myself....
i made a wish for u.....
don't think i m stupid...
because i knew as long as u happy then i will happy....
yes, my dream is very important...
but ur happiness is more important....
my dream wont be true also never mind as long as u feel happy....
don't misunderstand that i think too much....
i dint...
lastly thanks so much to my lovely friends....
don't compare the present...
all the presents are very valuable n memorable for me....
i will appreciate it so much....
i don't want any bald old guy...
i just want my friends...
friend forever...
i love u all....^^
happy birthday to myself.....
Friday, September 3, 2010
Truth...
this few days my body was not feeling well...
but i have to go school...
because need to settle some important thing....
nw i am really really very tired....
not just my body....
my heart too...
i feel angry n sad...
u open ur mouth n blame me without investigate the problem.....
i wont explain to u what is the truth...
i explain to u 100times also useless...
u can do so...
so for u my explanation just is a lie...
so i wont explain...
i never said a word...
but u use such word attack me...
i wont feel scare of u...
i just will ignore u...
yes, i care, i feel tired n feel want to cry...
but before that i had told myself i don't want be a girl that always cry anymore...
crying just will make me become weak...
i don't want look weak...
other people misunderstand me or blame me....
if i really dint do then i wont care...
u can open ur mouth n tell 100 peoples that i am wrong...
i will ignore u...
i believe if i dint do then i no need scare...
n i know God will know whether i have do wrong or nt...
if i really wrong then i will admit n say sorry....
although i feel tired but i wont 'take a break'....
i wont gives up....
but i have to go school...
because need to settle some important thing....
nw i am really really very tired....
not just my body....
my heart too...
i feel angry n sad...
u open ur mouth n blame me without investigate the problem.....
i wont explain to u what is the truth...
i explain to u 100times also useless...
u can do so...
so for u my explanation just is a lie...
so i wont explain...
i never said a word...
but u use such word attack me...
i wont feel scare of u...
i just will ignore u...
yes, i care, i feel tired n feel want to cry...
but before that i had told myself i don't want be a girl that always cry anymore...
crying just will make me become weak...
i don't want look weak...
other people misunderstand me or blame me....
if i really dint do then i wont care...
u can open ur mouth n tell 100 peoples that i am wrong...
i will ignore u...
i believe if i dint do then i no need scare...
n i know God will know whether i have do wrong or nt...
if i really wrong then i will admit n say sorry....
although i feel tired but i wont 'take a break'....
i wont gives up....
Saturday, August 21, 2010
improve in every aspect....
long time dint updates my blog...
because of busy study...
everyday wake up 4am to study n sleep at 10pm....
everyday repeat the same thing include weekend...
study,study,study n study....
i really feel tired...
sometimes felt want want to gives up...
but i can't do so...
just suffer for few more month...
so cannot gives up.....
just morning played badminton with my lovely friends....
long time dint do some exercise le
yes, i admit my skill is very bad...
not pro as u guys....
i also hope my skill as good as u guys...
so i always try my best to played....
but i still dint feel happy with my performance...
hope u guys can forgive my mistake
haiz...
8/8 to 9/8
a short holiday at star cruises....
that is a nice holiday...
i was very happy....
very enjoyable n relax....
i like the moment when together with my family...
really feel warm....
me n my cousin wake up early waiting for the sunrise....
but our luck was not so good...
that night was raining...
so can't see clearly...
this is a good chance...
but we dint have that luck....
the moment at the cruises is very nice...
i like that type of life....
no need worry every thing....
just relax n enjoy the happy life....
we also took a lot of photos....
all the photos are nice because of that camera...
thanks to my cousin...
luckily she brought that camera...^^
that camera....
haiz...
friends,u know y i say haiz le....
before i bought my new camera....
i had told u guys that i want that camera n hope i can get it....
but never mind....
i still young...
i sure can get it....
quarrel so many times with parent because of the driving license...
i use the technique that was very childish...
but the 'childish technique' is work....
haha....
i know i should not do so....
but i dint have idea....
sorry to my dad...
finally they agree...
the 'journey' is just started...
last Wednesday attended the undang seminar with wooi hong....
this week will go for the computer test...
hope i can get my driving license before my spm....
all my lovely friends already get their driving license except me...
because i m the youngest among them...
i like the moment when together with them...
sometimes want follow them go enjoy lunch also can't...
because i can't go back home....
haiz....
in few more month we will graduate ....
so i want spend more time with them....
Wednesday i dint go to school because i went for the undang seminar...
don't know what have going on...
when Thursday n Friday....
they always wish me happy birthday...
or ask me izit is my birthday....
i was shock....
my birthday still have two more week oh....
really speechless....
i always improve myself....
no matter is outlook or personality....
i don't know whether i has change or not...
but i hope so...
i knew attitude is not so easy to change or improve
n also takes time...
but i wont gives up....
i will continue improve myself....
your advice n words are always in my mind....
i like Sunday....
actually is i like the 3 hours at Erican centre....
after change teacher....
i like the oral time....
the new teacher more focus on our talking....
he always talk with us....
always let us talk....
but not talk for nothing....
we talk in English...
by this way our English only will improve.....
that why i like the oral time....
because i can train myself talk in English with other people...
teacher told us....
if u dint talk,u will go towards the English...
when u talk, the English will go to u....
yes, i agree what the teacher said....
after i train so many time....
i feel that my speaking has improve....
but is not enough....
still have so many space for me to improve....
i know my English still is broken English....
i will improve...
when i m speak,may be other people will laugh at me...
but by this way i can learn from my mistake n improve....
may be i need more confidence...
because of busy study...
everyday wake up 4am to study n sleep at 10pm....
everyday repeat the same thing include weekend...
study,study,study n study....
i really feel tired...
sometimes felt want want to gives up...
but i can't do so...
just suffer for few more month...
so cannot gives up.....
just morning played badminton with my lovely friends....
long time dint do some exercise le
yes, i admit my skill is very bad...
not pro as u guys....
i also hope my skill as good as u guys...
so i always try my best to played....
but i still dint feel happy with my performance...
hope u guys can forgive my mistake
haiz...
8/8 to 9/8
a short holiday at star cruises....
that is a nice holiday...
i was very happy....
very enjoyable n relax....
i like the moment when together with my family...
really feel warm....
me n my cousin wake up early waiting for the sunrise....
but our luck was not so good...
that night was raining...
so can't see clearly...
this is a good chance...
but we dint have that luck....
the moment at the cruises is very nice...
i like that type of life....
no need worry every thing....
just relax n enjoy the happy life....
we also took a lot of photos....
all the photos are nice because of that camera...
thanks to my cousin...
luckily she brought that camera...^^
that camera....
haiz...
friends,u know y i say haiz le....
before i bought my new camera....
i had told u guys that i want that camera n hope i can get it....
but never mind....
i still young...
i sure can get it....
quarrel so many times with parent because of the driving license...
i use the technique that was very childish...
but the 'childish technique' is work....
haha....
i know i should not do so....
but i dint have idea....
sorry to my dad...
finally they agree...
the 'journey' is just started...
last Wednesday attended the undang seminar with wooi hong....
this week will go for the computer test...
hope i can get my driving license before my spm....
all my lovely friends already get their driving license except me...
because i m the youngest among them...
i like the moment when together with them...
sometimes want follow them go enjoy lunch also can't...
because i can't go back home....
haiz....
in few more month we will graduate ....
so i want spend more time with them....
Wednesday i dint go to school because i went for the undang seminar...
don't know what have going on...
when Thursday n Friday....
they always wish me happy birthday...
or ask me izit is my birthday....
i was shock....
my birthday still have two more week oh....
really speechless....
i always improve myself....
no matter is outlook or personality....
i don't know whether i has change or not...
but i hope so...
i knew attitude is not so easy to change or improve
n also takes time...
but i wont gives up....
i will continue improve myself....
your advice n words are always in my mind....
i like Sunday....
actually is i like the 3 hours at Erican centre....
after change teacher....
i like the oral time....
the new teacher more focus on our talking....
he always talk with us....
always let us talk....
but not talk for nothing....
we talk in English...
by this way our English only will improve.....
that why i like the oral time....
because i can train myself talk in English with other people...
teacher told us....
if u dint talk,u will go towards the English...
when u talk, the English will go to u....
yes, i agree what the teacher said....
after i train so many time....
i feel that my speaking has improve....
but is not enough....
still have so many space for me to improve....
i know my English still is broken English....
i will improve...
when i m speak,may be other people will laugh at me...
but by this way i can learn from my mistake n improve....
may be i need more confidence...
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
study hard.....
yesterday teacher told us a bad news....
trial exam will be on August....
what!!!!
actually is at September....
don't know what is the reasons.....
haiz....
when i heard this bad news, my eyes was wet...
felt want to cry....
because i not yet prepare well....
for me trial exam is more important than SPM...
because i need that result to apply scholarship...
after think a whole day....
i have a made a decision....
everyday must study....
hard work is the key of success
i have plan a study timetable le oh....
so i will less on9....
one is better than two....
i like the moment when together with friends....
about love....
now is not the suitable time....
just will effect my studies...
n make me cant concentrate....
so temporary say NO to LOVE....
J,i just want say Ti Amero to u....
i know u will understand what i m talking about....
this time may be will be the last time i say that....
that is right.....
this decision will be good to me....
i know i have made the right decision...
yeah.....^^
good luck to myself....
CONCENTRATE STUDY!!!!
TRIAL AND SPM!!!!!!!!!
LESS ONLINE!!!!
trial exam will be on August....
what!!!!
actually is at September....
don't know what is the reasons.....
haiz....
when i heard this bad news, my eyes was wet...
felt want to cry....
because i not yet prepare well....
for me trial exam is more important than SPM...
because i need that result to apply scholarship...
after think a whole day....
i have a made a decision....
everyday must study....
hard work is the key of success
i have plan a study timetable le oh....
so i will less on9....
one is better than two....
i like the moment when together with friends....
about love....
now is not the suitable time....
just will effect my studies...
n make me cant concentrate....
so temporary say NO to LOVE....
J,i just want say Ti Amero to u....
i know u will understand what i m talking about....
this time may be will be the last time i say that....
that is right.....
this decision will be good to me....
i know i have made the right decision...
yeah.....^^
good luck to myself....
CONCENTRATE STUDY!!!!
TRIAL AND SPM!!!!!!!!!
LESS ONLINE!!!!
Monday, July 19, 2010
stress....
finally i get a chance to updates my blog....
because my exam just over....
actually this few days i want updates my blog....
my mood very down....
but bust prepared for my exam.......
i think i wont get good result.....
because i dint prepare well, when exam also cant concentrate...
haiz....
yesterday having a progressive test at erican.....
i like the test especially the oral test....
but derrick pity oh.....
during the oral test i ask him "stupid" questions....
he was shocked...
he looked at me with his big eyes.....
haha....^^
the time past so fast....
stage 3 is over le...
next lesson is stage 4....
that mean i almost complete my level 4 le.....
that time i also need to say bye bye to erican
but my new life is coming soon....
last friday ah hooi told me about The Sims 3.....
that is my favourite game.......
i love it so much.....
i play that game start from primary school...
but i stopped playing at form 3......
why i have to do so....
because that game is just like my drug....
if that time i dint do so for sure now my result very suck...
yes, i can wait....
wait more 5 months my drug is coming back....
haha...
after SPM i want buy original to install.......
hope in future i can get more The Sims n keep as my collection....
this few days i always think about one thing...
although my face look happy....
but my heart was so blur.....
at first i want say clearly...
i dont have BF....
before that at fb i change my relationship status is because some reasons.....
after i break with u....
i feel that i change a lots....
i dint 100% believe anyone....
sometimes include my family....
i dont want get hurt anymore....
so i choose to believe myself...
before that i believe u any things.....
believe that u wont like other guys hurt me...
but at the end the ending still is the same...
but i never regret...
i still believe u are a good guy...
i dont know what reason make me think that....
thousand of thanks to u....
u let me grow up....
i remember what u said...
ur words always remind me dont repeat the same mistake anymore....
so i will continue grow up...
when together with u, i learn so many things from u....
after break with u, i learn so many lessons from our love....
i know time cant return...
so i dint hope any thing...
just want to say thanks to u....
u made my life full of colour....
our story already past....
i wont turn back i just will look forward....
as u said appreciate what i have now....
突然用华语表达是因为知道你看不懂
所以才故意这么做
我恢复了，可以开开心心过我的生活
但并不代表我放得下你
在我的心里还有你
并不打算把你消除
在未来的日子里你在我心中的地位只会越变越小
但不会消失
一年多的感情不是说要放就放
因为你是第一位让我真的爱上你的人
你是对的人
我相信我是在错的时间遇见对的人
考试前一个星期非常开心
因为和你在fb聊也和你sms
还记得当晚我熬夜做功课
已经很夜了还能和你聊天
真的很开心
感觉当晚好像回到以前
以前我们常常在深夜里聊天
聊到累了就睡得很甜
很久没有那种感觉
就知因为和聊天我就可以非常开心
太天真了吧！
但如果可以保留那天真有多好
我对你还有感觉
但对我而言并不是好事
继续这样只会折磨自己
我会慢慢改变但不是现在
何时呢？
第二个你出现时一切才会变
而第二个你是那可以让我信任和爱他人
几时会出现？会是个怎样的人？我也不知道
我对someone的感觉是怎样
有时候就连我自己也会模糊
他对我的好让我感动和动心
一切顺其自然吧
我会试放下一切，我还需要时间
我们还年轻，慢慢来吧
我不想再重犯同样的错误，不想再受伤害
exam is over le.....
but i still need to do n worry so many things....
especially the camp that make me headache....
haiz....
hope i can handle n settle very well....
because my exam just over....
actually this few days i want updates my blog....
my mood very down....
but bust prepared for my exam.......
i think i wont get good result.....
because i dint prepare well, when exam also cant concentrate...
haiz....
yesterday having a progressive test at erican.....
i like the test especially the oral test....
but derrick pity oh.....
during the oral test i ask him "stupid" questions....
he was shocked...
he looked at me with his big eyes.....
haha....^^
the time past so fast....
stage 3 is over le...
next lesson is stage 4....
that mean i almost complete my level 4 le.....
that time i also need to say bye bye to erican
but my new life is coming soon....
last friday ah hooi told me about The Sims 3.....
that is my favourite game.......
i love it so much.....
i play that game start from primary school...
but i stopped playing at form 3......
why i have to do so....
because that game is just like my drug....
if that time i dint do so for sure now my result very suck...
yes, i can wait....
wait more 5 months my drug is coming back....
haha...
after SPM i want buy original to install.......
hope in future i can get more The Sims n keep as my collection....
this few days i always think about one thing...
although my face look happy....
but my heart was so blur.....
at first i want say clearly...
i dont have BF....
before that at fb i change my relationship status is because some reasons.....
after i break with u....
i feel that i change a lots....
i dint 100% believe anyone....
sometimes include my family....
i dont want get hurt anymore....
so i choose to believe myself...
before that i believe u any things.....
believe that u wont like other guys hurt me...
but at the end the ending still is the same...
but i never regret...
i still believe u are a good guy...
i dont know what reason make me think that....
thousand of thanks to u....
u let me grow up....
i remember what u said...
ur words always remind me dont repeat the same mistake anymore....
so i will continue grow up...
when together with u, i learn so many things from u....
after break with u, i learn so many lessons from our love....
i know time cant return...
so i dint hope any thing...
just want to say thanks to u....
u made my life full of colour....
our story already past....
i wont turn back i just will look forward....
as u said appreciate what i have now....
突然用华语表达是因为知道你看不懂
所以才故意这么做
我恢复了，可以开开心心过我的生活
但并不代表我放得下你
在我的心里还有你
并不打算把你消除
在未来的日子里你在我心中的地位只会越变越小
但不会消失
一年多的感情不是说要放就放
因为你是第一位让我真的爱上你的人
你是对的人
我相信我是在错的时间遇见对的人
考试前一个星期非常开心
因为和你在fb聊也和你sms
还记得当晚我熬夜做功课
已经很夜了还能和你聊天
真的很开心
感觉当晚好像回到以前
以前我们常常在深夜里聊天
聊到累了就睡得很甜
很久没有那种感觉
就知因为和聊天我就可以非常开心
太天真了吧！
但如果可以保留那天真有多好
我对你还有感觉
但对我而言并不是好事
继续这样只会折磨自己
我会慢慢改变但不是现在
何时呢？
第二个你出现时一切才会变
而第二个你是那可以让我信任和爱他人
几时会出现？会是个怎样的人？我也不知道
我对someone的感觉是怎样
有时候就连我自己也会模糊
他对我的好让我感动和动心
一切顺其自然吧
我会试放下一切，我还需要时间
我们还年轻，慢慢来吧
我不想再重犯同样的错误，不想再受伤害
exam is over le.....
but i still need to do n worry so many things....
especially the camp that make me headache....
haiz....
hope i can handle n settle very well....
Saturday, July 10, 2010
shit!!!!!!!
i must get my driving licence in this year....
i want go any where also need to beg them....
sometimes just want go buy some bread or stationery also want beg them....
i hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!
i HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't want beg anyone any more......
i really don't like.....
last night headache n sore throat...
so sleep early....
but before sleep someone make me angry...
that someone dint realize i was angry....
"y should i tell u?"
i don't like this sentence....
when i am serious, pls don't say such sentence to me.....
but last night i angry not because of this....
some thing more worse....
just a word 'sorry' want me forgive u
is so funny....
i need time to cool down....
so at night i will updates my blog...
i want go any where also need to beg them....
sometimes just want go buy some bread or stationery also want beg them....
i hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!
i HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't want beg anyone any more......
i really don't like.....
last night headache n sore throat...
so sleep early....
but before sleep someone make me angry...
that someone dint realize i was angry....
"y should i tell u?"
i don't like this sentence....
when i am serious, pls don't say such sentence to me.....
but last night i angry not because of this....
some thing more worse....
just a word 'sorry' want me forgive u
is so funny....
i need time to cool down....
so at night i will updates my blog...
Thursday, July 1, 2010
not enough sleeping time...
from Saturday night until last night...
every night also 2am sleep...
just sleep for 4 hours.....
sometimes just 3 hours...
why i want to do so????
the reason is want to complete all the projects.....
add math project, NIE magazine, collage for school magazine......
tonight also will late sleep....
because not yet complete my project....
although i felt tired but was very happy oh.....
especially last night i received a good news from my friend...
actually is just a small things....
i dint misunderstand the meaning....
i also dint hope any thing....
i also dint think so much....
i just feel happy until now.....
that happiness hard to describe....
but just now a bit disappointed about some thing....
so many people ask me about that someone...
to all my friends, that someone is not my bf.....
he is just my friend....
may be he is a good guys...
he done so many things that made me felt touch....
but.....
if time can turn back,i still will do the same choice..
i still will choose the same thing....
because i know that decision wont make me regret....
forever wont regret...
but nw i just want concentrate study....
i don't want any relationship.....
one of the reason is i dint believe that special relationship will last long....
i don't want to get hurt again.....
and my heart not yet empty....
i can accept the truth....
but i dint forget u......
i will keep my feeling in my heart...
may be in future every things will be change....
but for now i wont change my decision....
i will concentrate study, keep my feeling in my heart.....
continue my happy life.....
every night also 2am sleep...
just sleep for 4 hours.....
sometimes just 3 hours...
why i want to do so????
the reason is want to complete all the projects.....
add math project, NIE magazine, collage for school magazine......
tonight also will late sleep....
because not yet complete my project....
although i felt tired but was very happy oh.....
especially last night i received a good news from my friend...
actually is just a small things....
i dint misunderstand the meaning....
i also dint hope any thing....
i also dint think so much....
i just feel happy until now.....
that happiness hard to describe....
but just now a bit disappointed about some thing....
so many people ask me about that someone...
to all my friends, that someone is not my bf.....
he is just my friend....
may be he is a good guys...
he done so many things that made me felt touch....
but.....
if time can turn back,i still will do the same choice..
i still will choose the same thing....
because i know that decision wont make me regret....
forever wont regret...
but nw i just want concentrate study....
i don't want any relationship.....
one of the reason is i dint believe that special relationship will last long....
i don't want to get hurt again.....
and my heart not yet empty....
i can accept the truth....
but i dint forget u......
i will keep my feeling in my heart...
may be in future every things will be change....
but for now i wont change my decision....
i will concentrate study, keep my feeling in my heart.....
continue my happy life.....
Saturday, June 19, 2010
dint feeling well....
just now morning n afternoon not feeling well...
felt want to vomit....
please don't misunderstand oh....
i dint pregnant oh....
hehe....^^
may be last night dint sleep well....
last night 2pm only sleep....
because talked with someone.....
this holiday almost everyday sms and talk with someone.....
yes,i feel happy when chat with someone....
xz,may be u r right....
may be i should accept the truth....
j is the past n he won't come back my life again....
forget about j....
that someone good to me....
but i don't know that someone very well....
may be i scare to get hurt again.....
i will consider properly....
but i very confirm during this 5 month i will concentrate study....
i remember what the monk said....
the monk said during the study time must concentrate study...
don't think about love....
dint have many good guy in this world....
nowadays the guys also bad....
as a intelligent girl...
before accept a guy,we must know that guy very well...
don't simply accept a guy....
yes, i agree what the monk said...
before that i know all about that le...
the monk remind me again....
say thanks to the monk....
don't talk about this le lah...
lets continue my holiday story.....
9/6/2010 until 12/6/2010
stay at home online a whole day....
early morning until night sat in front the laptop.....
of course not just facebook lah....
but is youtube....
watched Taiwan drama,"xia yi zhan xin fu".....
the story very nice n touch....
especially the kid very cute....
not just his outlook cute....
the way he talk also very cute....
13/6/2010
attended primary school gathering at queensbay
very rush oh....
tuition until 1pm...
after that direct went to queensbay le....
luckily someone wait for me....
i enjoy my lunch with mum n brother at queensbay....
me n someone decide to watch karate kid....
the popularity of the movie very high so was full....
until 7pm only have place...
but that time i need to go back home le....
so me n someone watched The A-team....
really a nice movie.....
dint feel regret watch that movie....
that someone always by my side....
that someone walked around the queensbay and shopping with me....
say sorry to that someone because that someone waiting 4 me....
also say thanks to that someone because watched movie n walked around with me....
that day take a lot photos with my primary school's friends....
chat with them felt very comfortable n had special feeling....
don't knew when still can get the chance to meet with that someone n all friends.....
that someone also same primary school with me oh....
tomorrow go to queensbay celebrate father's day....
other day continue updates oh....
now my heart n mood dint feeling well...
good night....^^
felt want to vomit....
please don't misunderstand oh....
i dint pregnant oh....
hehe....^^
may be last night dint sleep well....
last night 2pm only sleep....
because talked with someone.....
this holiday almost everyday sms and talk with someone.....
yes,i feel happy when chat with someone....
xz,may be u r right....
may be i should accept the truth....
j is the past n he won't come back my life again....
forget about j....
that someone good to me....
but i don't know that someone very well....
may be i scare to get hurt again.....
i will consider properly....
but i very confirm during this 5 month i will concentrate study....
i remember what the monk said....
the monk said during the study time must concentrate study...
don't think about love....
dint have many good guy in this world....
nowadays the guys also bad....
as a intelligent girl...
before accept a guy,we must know that guy very well...
don't simply accept a guy....
yes, i agree what the monk said...
before that i know all about that le...
the monk remind me again....
say thanks to the monk....
don't talk about this le lah...
lets continue my holiday story.....
9/6/2010 until 12/6/2010
stay at home online a whole day....
early morning until night sat in front the laptop.....
of course not just facebook lah....
but is youtube....
watched Taiwan drama,"xia yi zhan xin fu".....
the story very nice n touch....
especially the kid very cute....
not just his outlook cute....
the way he talk also very cute....
13/6/2010
attended primary school gathering at queensbay
very rush oh....
tuition until 1pm...
after that direct went to queensbay le....
luckily someone wait for me....
i enjoy my lunch with mum n brother at queensbay....
me n someone decide to watch karate kid....
the popularity of the movie very high so was full....
until 7pm only have place...
but that time i need to go back home le....
so me n someone watched The A-team....
really a nice movie.....
dint feel regret watch that movie....
that someone always by my side....
that someone walked around the queensbay and shopping with me....
say sorry to that someone because that someone waiting 4 me....
also say thanks to that someone because watched movie n walked around with me....
that day take a lot photos with my primary school's friends....
chat with them felt very comfortable n had special feeling....
don't knew when still can get the chance to meet with that someone n all friends.....
that someone also same primary school with me oh....
tomorrow go to queensbay celebrate father's day....
other day continue updates oh....
now my heart n mood dint feeling well...
good night....^^
Friday, June 18, 2010
happy holiday....
is time to say good bye to my school holiday....
i very enjoy my school holiday so i dint updates my blog 4 so long....
another reason i dint updates my blog is i am learning how to control my emotion...
i realise that other peoples in this worlds has no responsibility to make me happy...
just one person can make me happy n confirm i m happy....
that is me,sally choo...
if i want to grow up,i should solve my problem by myself....
unless i really have no idea or i really need my friends to help me...
lets talk about my holiday....
5/6/2010
early morning went back to grand mum's house...
attended my cousin's wedding party...
at night also attended my cousin's wedding dinner...
the moment most happy is before going to the dinner...
aunt make up for me because i m still a learner...
my skill is nt as good as her....
but i will improve my skill...
hope in future my skill will better than her...
hehehe....^^
i also take a lot photo...
6/6/2010
wake up early....
i was so tired but i can't sleep...
because the uncles n aunts woke up le...
Ivan also woke up le...
his sound made me can't sleep....
just woke up awhile....
my brain still can't function...
uncle said fetched me go market buy breakfast...
i not yet change my clothes...
so i wear pyjamas went to market....
first time do such thing...
but i not so care about it...
because at there nobody know me....^^
around 4pm went back to penang...
bt i dint followed my mum...
all the "old kids" followed my aunt....
the "old kids" are my brother,me n xin wei...
b4 going back to my home....
we went to temple...
at the temple, three of us take a lot funny photos....
when on the way going back to my home...
me n xin wei sat at the back of the car...
both of us take a lot funny photos....
also do crazy action...
i thinks both of us really mad....
but i like the moment when we enjoy n have fun together...
although other people will think we are mad but i don't care...
at night together with family went to tambum enjoy seafood....
i love to eat crab...
yummy......
really love it....^^
7/6/2010
early morning went to school...
but dint bring school bag...
this time i went with my luggage....
because i followed the tanjung bunga trip that organised by my school...
i went with my lovely friends...
i think my friends will vomit when they know i call them lovely friends...
haha.....^^
actually the activities was just ok...
nt so good but also nt bad....
i thought stay at paradise hotel....
but we stay at tanjung bunga hotel...
the room smaller than paradise hotel....
bt luckily my room is face to the beach n swimming pool...
the view so nice....
love it...
at night went to gurney...
before going to gurney we had two hours for us to prepare....
i spend the time very well....
also prepare very well....
chen n ming said if give me three hours,
i also will prepare until last minutes...
may be that is true....haha....^^
went to Kim Gary enjoy our dinner....
then was my lovely time....
that is shopping!!!
actually i plan to buy a nice slipper....
bt dint have my size....
so bought a padini t shirt....
padini is my favourite brand....
i like all the clothes,slippers,accessories n others....
all the stuff very suit me....
if want buy clothes for boy or man, padini is a good choice....
love it so my much....
when 12am....
we gave ming a surprise...
because that time was her birthday...
when we walked in the room with a birthday cake, she stand at toilet....
she stand at toilet heard we sang birthday song 4 her
so she celebrate her birthday at toilet...
jk,of course we nt so bad lah....
haha.....^^
after others friends went back to their room....
4 of us,me,mooi,chen n ming take a lot photos n went to lobby....
we talked until 2am.....
the happy hours for us....
the moment we enjoy n have fun together was so great....
8/7/2010
woke up early to prepare n enjoy breakfast....
western breakfast is my favourite food....
after that went to butterfly farm....
is just ok...
not too bad....
but we also have fun....
then went to toy's museum....
at the moment,all of us become kids....
good for us....
let us know we had been grow up....
so we also must be more mature...
not just for the outlook....
the way we think is more important....
we went to a restaurant enjoy our lunch...
my table which is near to the toilet....
oh shit....
i hate it...
although the toilet close with a door...
bt i still don't like....
i always force myself don't think so much....
this is the last time
after that went to aquarium which near to the new world park....
second time went to the aquarium le...
so bored....
around 3pm arrived school n went back to home...
finally can rest le...
online n wait chen upload the video that we gave to ming as her birthday present....
the video so touch n meaningful....
made me want to cried....
the time pass so fast....
our friendship 5 years le....
not easy to maintain 5 years friendship....
so i feel proud to us....
we must appreciate our friendship....
after graduate, we also must keep contact....
tomorrow i will continue updates my blog....
my holiday really meaningful n full of activities....
i also nt yet share a big secret...
actually is nt a secret lah.....
good night....^^
i very enjoy my school holiday so i dint updates my blog 4 so long....
another reason i dint updates my blog is i am learning how to control my emotion...
i realise that other peoples in this worlds has no responsibility to make me happy...
just one person can make me happy n confirm i m happy....
that is me,sally choo...
if i want to grow up,i should solve my problem by myself....
unless i really have no idea or i really need my friends to help me...
lets talk about my holiday....
5/6/2010
early morning went back to grand mum's house...
attended my cousin's wedding party...
at night also attended my cousin's wedding dinner...
the moment most happy is before going to the dinner...
aunt make up for me because i m still a learner...
my skill is nt as good as her....
but i will improve my skill...
hope in future my skill will better than her...
hehehe....^^
i also take a lot photo...
6/6/2010
wake up early....
i was so tired but i can't sleep...
because the uncles n aunts woke up le...
Ivan also woke up le...
his sound made me can't sleep....
just woke up awhile....
my brain still can't function...
uncle said fetched me go market buy breakfast...
i not yet change my clothes...
so i wear pyjamas went to market....
first time do such thing...
but i not so care about it...
because at there nobody know me....^^
around 4pm went back to penang...
bt i dint followed my mum...
all the "old kids" followed my aunt....
the "old kids" are my brother,me n xin wei...
b4 going back to my home....
we went to temple...
at the temple, three of us take a lot funny photos....
when on the way going back to my home...
me n xin wei sat at the back of the car...
both of us take a lot funny photos....
also do crazy action...
i thinks both of us really mad....
but i like the moment when we enjoy n have fun together...
although other people will think we are mad but i don't care...
at night together with family went to tambum enjoy seafood....
i love to eat crab...
yummy......
really love it....^^
7/6/2010
early morning went to school...
but dint bring school bag...
this time i went with my luggage....
because i followed the tanjung bunga trip that organised by my school...
i went with my lovely friends...
i think my friends will vomit when they know i call them lovely friends...
haha.....^^
actually the activities was just ok...
nt so good but also nt bad....
i thought stay at paradise hotel....
but we stay at tanjung bunga hotel...
the room smaller than paradise hotel....
bt luckily my room is face to the beach n swimming pool...
the view so nice....
love it...
at night went to gurney...
before going to gurney we had two hours for us to prepare....
i spend the time very well....
also prepare very well....
chen n ming said if give me three hours,
i also will prepare until last minutes...
may be that is true....haha....^^
went to Kim Gary enjoy our dinner....
then was my lovely time....
that is shopping!!!
actually i plan to buy a nice slipper....
bt dint have my size....
so bought a padini t shirt....
padini is my favourite brand....
i like all the clothes,slippers,accessories n others....
all the stuff very suit me....
if want buy clothes for boy or man, padini is a good choice....
love it so my much....
when 12am....
we gave ming a surprise...
because that time was her birthday...
when we walked in the room with a birthday cake, she stand at toilet....
she stand at toilet heard we sang birthday song 4 her
so she celebrate her birthday at toilet...
jk,of course we nt so bad lah....
haha.....^^
after others friends went back to their room....
4 of us,me,mooi,chen n ming take a lot photos n went to lobby....
we talked until 2am.....
the happy hours for us....
the moment we enjoy n have fun together was so great....
8/7/2010
woke up early to prepare n enjoy breakfast....
western breakfast is my favourite food....
after that went to butterfly farm....
is just ok...
not too bad....
but we also have fun....
then went to toy's museum....
at the moment,all of us become kids....
good for us....
let us know we had been grow up....
so we also must be more mature...
not just for the outlook....
the way we think is more important....
we went to a restaurant enjoy our lunch...
my table which is near to the toilet....
oh shit....
i hate it...
although the toilet close with a door...
bt i still don't like....
i always force myself don't think so much....
this is the last time
after that went to aquarium which near to the new world park....
second time went to the aquarium le...
so bored....
around 3pm arrived school n went back to home...
finally can rest le...
online n wait chen upload the video that we gave to ming as her birthday present....
the video so touch n meaningful....
made me want to cried....
the time pass so fast....
our friendship 5 years le....
not easy to maintain 5 years friendship....
so i feel proud to us....
we must appreciate our friendship....
after graduate, we also must keep contact....
tomorrow i will continue updates my blog....
my holiday really meaningful n full of activities....
i also nt yet share a big secret...
actually is nt a secret lah.....
good night....^^
Thursday, May 27, 2010
exam....
almost 1 month i dint updates my blog....
exam make me so tired....
everyday 10.30pm slp n 4am wake up....
so early wake up 4 what??
sure is study lah....
everyday repeat the same thing....
really feel tired....
the exam nt yet finish...
bt tomorrow is public holiday...
so today i can rest....
yesterday during english test....
something bad had happened...
headache!!!!!!
i hate it.....
at that moment i don't knw i should finish the test first or slp first....
by that time i really hope someone can helps me.....
feel want to kill myself.....
bt i also i finish my test first....
haiz....
hope i wont get bad result...
today is bio test....
last night i study until gives up.....
today early morning,4am woke up to study...
bt stil no mood...
i really hate bio lah....
then i choose to gives up....
first time i choose to gives up....
during the bio test i felt regret....
if i prepare n study well i sure can answer all the questions...
bt too late le....
haiz...
next time i sure wont choose to gives up however bad the situation was...
i sure will try my best....
last sunday quarrel with my mum....
until nw we still dint talk to each other....
dont knw y i dont feel like to talk....
that person just an ordinary person...
when i look at the person,i sure will laugh....
i can laugh a whole day because of that person's outlook...
that person's outlook just ok, nt perfect n funny....
bt i sure will laugh....
i have no idea with my crazy action
that person is guy or girl??
i dont feel like to say....
hehe....
so just guess lah
tomorrow go kai kai...
so i will continue update my blog...
just that all...
bye...^^
exam make me so tired....
everyday 10.30pm slp n 4am wake up....
so early wake up 4 what??
sure is study lah....
everyday repeat the same thing....
really feel tired....
the exam nt yet finish...
bt tomorrow is public holiday...
so today i can rest....
yesterday during english test....
something bad had happened...
headache!!!!!!
i hate it.....
at that moment i don't knw i should finish the test first or slp first....
by that time i really hope someone can helps me.....
feel want to kill myself.....
bt i also i finish my test first....
haiz....
hope i wont get bad result...
today is bio test....
last night i study until gives up.....
today early morning,4am woke up to study...
bt stil no mood...
i really hate bio lah....
then i choose to gives up....
first time i choose to gives up....
during the bio test i felt regret....
if i prepare n study well i sure can answer all the questions...
bt too late le....
haiz...
next time i sure wont choose to gives up however bad the situation was...
i sure will try my best....
last sunday quarrel with my mum....
until nw we still dint talk to each other....
dont knw y i dont feel like to talk....
that person just an ordinary person...
when i look at the person,i sure will laugh....
i can laugh a whole day because of that person's outlook...
that person's outlook just ok, nt perfect n funny....
bt i sure will laugh....
i have no idea with my crazy action
that person is guy or girl??
i dont feel like to say....
hehe....
so just guess lah
tomorrow go kai kai...
so i will continue update my blog...
just that all...
bye...^^
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
study n study,,,,,,,
today dint go to school....
stay at home study....
last night so late sleep...
today early morning wake up le...
very tired oh....
but no idea....
i must do that
because not enough time 4 me to study le....
exam is around the corner...
from morning until nw my buttock still stick on the chair....
nw my backbone very pain...
become ah mah le...
stay at home study is better than go to school...
the surrounding environment so good....
i was so happy on last friday night....
because.....
i chat with someone....
nt lover lah....
is just a friend....
but also can say as primary school's friend...
he still remember me oh.....
he also told me may be he will organise a gathering on this coming holiday....
woo....
so good....
so touch....
thanks....
we also chat others thing....
actually i met him when last year gathering at qb....
b4 that we never meet each other....
last sunday morning went to market with mummy...
after that went to erican centre register....
very disappointed....
i hoped can get level 4....
bt i just get level 3 stage 3....
haiz....
derrick n mao told me can change to level 4....
n b4 that they also change....
yes,i must change.....
actually i hope in future i can get a PET certificate....
bt i nt dare tell daddy n mummy....
stay at home study....
last night so late sleep...
today early morning wake up le...
very tired oh....
but no idea....
i must do that
because not enough time 4 me to study le....
exam is around the corner...
from morning until nw my buttock still stick on the chair....
nw my backbone very pain...
become ah mah le...
stay at home study is better than go to school...
the surrounding environment so good....
i was so happy on last friday night....
because.....
i chat with someone....
nt lover lah....
is just a friend....
but also can say as primary school's friend...
he still remember me oh.....
he also told me may be he will organise a gathering on this coming holiday....
woo....
so good....
so touch....
thanks....
we also chat others thing....
actually i met him when last year gathering at qb....
b4 that we never meet each other....
last sunday morning went to market with mummy...
after that went to erican centre register....
very disappointed....
i hoped can get level 4....
bt i just get level 3 stage 3....
haiz....
derrick n mao told me can change to level 4....
n b4 that they also change....
yes,i must change.....
actually i hope in future i can get a PET certificate....
bt i nt dare tell daddy n mummy....
Friday, April 30, 2010
moody.....
今天心情超不好....
我的人生不完整....
有很多遗憾....
看到他们把小学同学的照片edit了upload在fb....
全部的脸孔好面熟...
全部都曾经是我的好朋友....
我却无法和他们一起毕业...
所以我不在那张照片里...
我看了后心里有点不舒服....
三月假期时我出席了学校举办的弟子规营...
所以我没出席大型的同学会...
到现在我还是很心痛...
对你们来说也许只是普通的同学会....
但对我而言很意义...
没转过校的人是无法理解我的心情...
不珍惜友情的人更不不懂得了解情....
我希望六月的假期会有再次的同学会...
而我一定要出席...
我现在很想哭....
今天也因为你心情变得不好...
但我不想多说了...
都只是思念带来的痛苦和不开心....
en,
其实昨晚和你讲完电话后我哭了....
我想起以前的所有...
很怀念...
是多么希望一切可以重来...
我的人生不完整....
有很多遗憾....
看到他们把小学同学的照片edit了upload在fb....
全部的脸孔好面熟...
全部都曾经是我的好朋友....
我却无法和他们一起毕业...
所以我不在那张照片里...
我看了后心里有点不舒服....
三月假期时我出席了学校举办的弟子规营...
所以我没出席大型的同学会...
到现在我还是很心痛...
对你们来说也许只是普通的同学会....
但对我而言很意义...
没转过校的人是无法理解我的心情...
不珍惜友情的人更不不懂得了解情....
我希望六月的假期会有再次的同学会...
而我一定要出席...
我现在很想哭....
今天也因为你心情变得不好...
但我不想多说了...
都只是思念带来的痛苦和不开心....
en,
其实昨晚和你讲完电话后我哭了....
我想起以前的所有...
很怀念...
是多么希望一切可以重来...
Thursday, April 29, 2010
very very very happy but also feel sad....
今天好开心....
我的努力没有白费了...
我们的色组在perbarisan得奖了...
我尽力去做到最好...
也牺牲了我读书的时间...
只希望可以获奖....
但不用紧...
接下来的日子要努力读书了...
真的超开心...
虽然只是小事罢了...
至少我的努力获得肯定...
woo.....
我不知道你有没有出现在学校...
但我没有看到你...
希望你可以出现...
但你还是没有出现....
今天超不爽一个人...
毕业了还回来干嘛...
其实这个人还没毕业时就惹很多人讨厌他了...
我是在和brandon讲话....
他可以不要当我在讲时他又在brandon的耳旁小声讲大声笑....
他这种行为很过分...
他可以respect我吗?
废才!!!
在fb看到小学同学upload他们的毕业照...
可惜里面没有我...
大家都聊得很开心...
我却聊不进他们的话题....
就算可以聊感觉也怪怪的...
无法和他们一起毕业已经成为我的遗憾了....
每一次的同学会我都很开心...
和他们在一起的感觉不一样...
但只要一聊到学校我是多么的想逃避话题...
我也想和他们一样在名校读书....
这是我以前的愿望....
我现在的学校的确是马来校....
幸好每一次婉琴都体谅我...
都帮我解释...
很后悔当初没有要求让我在penang读完小学才搬家...
至少我可以和他们一起渡过我的小学生活...
如果时间可以倒流...
我宁愿当初没有搬家...
不需要转校...
就算我知道如果我没有搬家就不会遇到你...
我也愿意...
明年我怎样也要去我梦寐以求的college读书...
我不想再有任何遗憾了...
虽然我现在没有在名校读书...
我的学校也不怎么好...
但我有一班best friend...
我珍惜和你们之间的friendship....
我要注明我的best friend都没有和我同班,
除了两三位而已...
朋友们,
我们一起快快乐乐过最后一年的中学生活吧!
也许我太敏感了...
上个星期时总觉得被你们冷落和忽略...
所以不怎么想要开口讲话...
从小只要被冷落了就会胡思乱想...
会不开心...
现在还是一样...
前几天也是有同感...
我会觉得孤单...
曾经想过要把自己躲在一个角落...
没人理会会更好吗?
就当着我想太多了吧....
我的努力没有白费了...
我们的色组在perbarisan得奖了...
我尽力去做到最好...
也牺牲了我读书的时间...
只希望可以获奖....
但不用紧...
接下来的日子要努力读书了...
真的超开心...
虽然只是小事罢了...
至少我的努力获得肯定...
woo.....
我不知道你有没有出现在学校...
但我没有看到你...
希望你可以出现...
但你还是没有出现....
今天超不爽一个人...
毕业了还回来干嘛...
其实这个人还没毕业时就惹很多人讨厌他了...
我是在和brandon讲话....
他可以不要当我在讲时他又在brandon的耳旁小声讲大声笑....
他这种行为很过分...
他可以respect我吗?
废才!!!
在fb看到小学同学upload他们的毕业照...
可惜里面没有我...
大家都聊得很开心...
我却聊不进他们的话题....
就算可以聊感觉也怪怪的...
无法和他们一起毕业已经成为我的遗憾了....
每一次的同学会我都很开心...
和他们在一起的感觉不一样...
但只要一聊到学校我是多么的想逃避话题...
我也想和他们一样在名校读书....
这是我以前的愿望....
我现在的学校的确是马来校....
幸好每一次婉琴都体谅我...
都帮我解释...
很后悔当初没有要求让我在penang读完小学才搬家...
至少我可以和他们一起渡过我的小学生活...
如果时间可以倒流...
我宁愿当初没有搬家...
不需要转校...
就算我知道如果我没有搬家就不会遇到你...
我也愿意...
明年我怎样也要去我梦寐以求的college读书...
我不想再有任何遗憾了...
虽然我现在没有在名校读书...
我的学校也不怎么好...
但我有一班best friend...
我珍惜和你们之间的friendship....
我要注明我的best friend都没有和我同班,
除了两三位而已...
朋友们,
我们一起快快乐乐过最后一年的中学生活吧!
也许我太敏感了...
上个星期时总觉得被你们冷落和忽略...
所以不怎么想要开口讲话...
从小只要被冷落了就会胡思乱想...
会不开心...
现在还是一样...
前几天也是有同感...
我会觉得孤单...
曾经想过要把自己躲在一个角落...
没人理会会更好吗?
就当着我想太多了吧....
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
梦想成真....
很久没update我的blog了....
都在读书....
也少上网了....
其实在那其间发生了很多不愉快的事....
有很多复杂的心情....
先说你吧....
知道你每天都会用fb测验你的lover是谁...
每天都是不一样的人...
我曾经想过如果有一天是我会怎样....
果然发生了...
前几天真的测验是我...
我看到的第一感觉是开心...
但只是开心那短短的几second...
我担心你会生气和不喜欢....
我当时是多么的想delete....
算了...
反正都只是玩玩罢了...
坦白讲我是希望可以和你在一起...
我怀念我们在一起时的快乐时光...
但我很清楚你的心里没有我了...
一切不会再有第二次了...
我现在真的很想你...
希望可以看到你和你聊天...
就算给你骂我也甘愿...
你好像回来bm了...
不知明天你会不会去学校...
希望可以看到你...
但要是你真的出现,
我不知该怎么面对你....
昨天有点不甘心...
昨天的tarik tali输了...
我真的很想赢...
但我们的组选错地方了...
接受吧
输了也无所谓...
但还没比之前就让你们看小...
人家都认为我可以吗?
我去拔还是给人拔?
我当时很想用实力证明给你们看...
一切结束后才知道原来被看小是很正常的...
其他人也是一样....
回到班看到en煮给我们的spaghetti也开胃了...
休息时和ming,chen,en一起吃....
好饱哦也好吃....
谢谢en的爱心早餐.....^^
如果你还爱的前男友有了新女友,你会有什么反应?
我也许会伤心一阵子...
也有可能无法接受...
可是不管怎样都是要接受...
我没体验过所以我无法了解....
朋友,希望你可以体谅我无法了解你的感受...
今天起来后整个身体很痛...
连换衣服都觉得痛....
今天在学校很累....
忙了一整天...
连早餐都没吃...
希望明天一切顺利.....
都在读书....
也少上网了....
其实在那其间发生了很多不愉快的事....
有很多复杂的心情....
先说你吧....
知道你每天都会用fb测验你的lover是谁...
每天都是不一样的人...
我曾经想过如果有一天是我会怎样....
果然发生了...
前几天真的测验是我...
我看到的第一感觉是开心...
但只是开心那短短的几second...
我担心你会生气和不喜欢....
我当时是多么的想delete....
算了...
反正都只是玩玩罢了...
坦白讲我是希望可以和你在一起...
我怀念我们在一起时的快乐时光...
但我很清楚你的心里没有我了...
一切不会再有第二次了...
我现在真的很想你...
希望可以看到你和你聊天...
就算给你骂我也甘愿...
你好像回来bm了...
不知明天你会不会去学校...
希望可以看到你...
但要是你真的出现,
我不知该怎么面对你....
昨天有点不甘心...
昨天的tarik tali输了...
我真的很想赢...
但我们的组选错地方了...
接受吧
输了也无所谓...
但还没比之前就让你们看小...
人家都认为我可以吗?
我去拔还是给人拔?
我当时很想用实力证明给你们看...
一切结束后才知道原来被看小是很正常的...
其他人也是一样....
回到班看到en煮给我们的spaghetti也开胃了...
休息时和ming,chen,en一起吃....
好饱哦也好吃....
谢谢en的爱心早餐.....^^
如果你还爱的前男友有了新女友,你会有什么反应?
我也许会伤心一阵子...
也有可能无法接受...
可是不管怎样都是要接受...
我没体验过所以我无法了解....
朋友,希望你可以体谅我无法了解你的感受...
今天起来后整个身体很痛...
连换衣服都觉得痛....
今天在学校很累....
忙了一整天...
连早餐都没吃...
希望明天一切顺利.....
Saturday, April 17, 2010
sick......
短短的7天内发生了很所事情....
我的心情和情绪像wave,不能平衡...
今天呢...
原本高高兴兴去到学校...
因为很久没去karate的training了...
虽然病了...
但很想把身体所有的汗流出来...
看到zf...
他变胖了...
开始时还忍不到他...
还以为他是你...
看了他的走路方式后很肯定是他...
training完后,en和ming告诉我你来学校...
我还以为她们在骗我...
不久后我就忍不住哭了...
我还没看到你我就哭了...
我也不懂我为什么会哭...
我要求en带我去看你...
我只是默默站在sudut bacaan看着你...
你在旧食堂...
所以我只是看到小小的你...
我有想过要和你打招呼...
但太特地了...
或许你不想看到我....
过后en不再让我去看你了....
其实我不甘心...
我想看你多一眼...
我太久没看到你了...
去counselling meeting时...
我已经心不在焉了...
也好几次我也差点哭...
中场休息时....
我一个人走到sudut bacaan偷偷望你...
但我没看到你....
meeting完后en不允许我回家哭....
到现在我都还没哭...
可是不懂等下会发生什么事...
上一次你来学校我也哭...
这次也一样...
我还很care...
我还放不下....
但我也痛苦....
wednesday时我生病了...
到现在都还没有恢复....
星期三那晚最难熬...
我哭了很多次....
我很辛苦...
但我还想要像以前一样告诉你...
我想要你的关心...
生病真的让人很痛苦...
我很讨厌吃药....
last sunday和家人去PC Fair....
也买了属于自己的camera...
当然有哥在旁边给我意见....
哥也买了他的laptop....
也遇到brandon和han chew...
他们在那边当show girls....
没有啦...
他们只是在推销产品....
brandon嘴巴还蛮甜...
还和我的家人聊天...
佩服他...
在短短的几分钟内他也可以相处....
看到你在fb写的东西了...
我猜一定是你的cousin了....
没想到会有人问你是不是你的前女友....
你的答案是"如果是我的前女友哭,我不会管她"
你的答案让很气...
难道你不能回答"不是"
让我觉得你需要帮助是你来找我...
当我有难时你却当我是陌生人....
虽然只是很小事...
但我在意....
我的心情和情绪像wave,不能平衡...
今天呢...
原本高高兴兴去到学校...
因为很久没去karate的training了...
虽然病了...
但很想把身体所有的汗流出来...
看到zf...
他变胖了...
开始时还忍不到他...
还以为他是你...
看了他的走路方式后很肯定是他...
training完后,en和ming告诉我你来学校...
我还以为她们在骗我...
不久后我就忍不住哭了...
我还没看到你我就哭了...
我也不懂我为什么会哭...
我要求en带我去看你...
我只是默默站在sudut bacaan看着你...
你在旧食堂...
所以我只是看到小小的你...
我有想过要和你打招呼...
但太特地了...
或许你不想看到我....
过后en不再让我去看你了....
其实我不甘心...
我想看你多一眼...
我太久没看到你了...
去counselling meeting时...
我已经心不在焉了...
也好几次我也差点哭...
中场休息时....
我一个人走到sudut bacaan偷偷望你...
但我没看到你....
meeting完后en不允许我回家哭....
到现在我都还没哭...
可是不懂等下会发生什么事...
上一次你来学校我也哭...
这次也一样...
我还很care...
我还放不下....
但我也痛苦....
wednesday时我生病了...
到现在都还没有恢复....
星期三那晚最难熬...
我哭了很多次....
我很辛苦...
但我还想要像以前一样告诉你...
我想要你的关心...
生病真的让人很痛苦...
我很讨厌吃药....
last sunday和家人去PC Fair....
也买了属于自己的camera...
当然有哥在旁边给我意见....
哥也买了他的laptop....
也遇到brandon和han chew...
他们在那边当show girls....
没有啦...
他们只是在推销产品....
brandon嘴巴还蛮甜...
还和我的家人聊天...
佩服他...
在短短的几分钟内他也可以相处....
看到你在fb写的东西了...
我猜一定是你的cousin了....
没想到会有人问你是不是你的前女友....
你的答案是"如果是我的前女友哭,我不会管她"
你的答案让很气...
难道你不能回答"不是"
让我觉得你需要帮助是你来找我...
当我有难时你却当我是陌生人....
虽然只是很小事...
但我在意....
Saturday, April 10, 2010
happy....wooo!!!!
今天太开心了....
很久都没这么开心了....
早上去练球...
都蛮顺利的...
大家也很开心在打球...
教练也教我开球...
因为之前的开球技术都不怎么好...
今天你们打的球真的好高...很好...
但我并没有信心要去接...
可是讲真....
当我去接那种球时手真的很痛...
那种force很强....
但我不介意...
因为大家都玩得很开心....
打球完后教练还帮我们拍照呢...
拍照那里可以少了我...
hehe...^^
chen & ming都人为今天我有进步了哦...
不错...
continue加油....
过后就去club counselling的meeting...
由PTPL College举办的team building....
活动都只是还差不多罢了....
但我今天好像失控了...
我真的豁出去....
我不想去管别人怎样看我....
就做我自己...
也做了一些不寻常的动作...
不管啦....
最重要我开心...
虽然我的组没有得奖...
但无所谓...
因为你们都做得很好.....
我还教你们画猪和乌龟...
但你们的猪不如我的可爱...
hehe....^^
昨晚我又梦见你了.....
在某某情况下你给我卡片...
不清楚是怎样的情况和卡片...
因为只是一场梦....
只是在梦中我看到卡片上的内容...
内容没有必要讲..
因为不可能发生....
前几天和昨天都有事情...
等下才continue update了....
很久都没这么开心了....
早上去练球...
都蛮顺利的...
大家也很开心在打球...
教练也教我开球...
因为之前的开球技术都不怎么好...
今天你们打的球真的好高...很好...
但我并没有信心要去接...
可是讲真....
当我去接那种球时手真的很痛...
那种force很强....
但我不介意...
因为大家都玩得很开心....
打球完后教练还帮我们拍照呢...
拍照那里可以少了我...
hehe...^^
chen & ming都人为今天我有进步了哦...
不错...
continue加油....
过后就去club counselling的meeting...
由PTPL College举办的team building....
活动都只是还差不多罢了....
但我今天好像失控了...
我真的豁出去....
我不想去管别人怎样看我....
就做我自己...
也做了一些不寻常的动作...
不管啦....
最重要我开心...
虽然我的组没有得奖...
但无所谓...
因为你们都做得很好.....
我还教你们画猪和乌龟...
但你们的猪不如我的可爱...
hehe....^^
昨晚我又梦见你了.....
在某某情况下你给我卡片...
不清楚是怎样的情况和卡片...
因为只是一场梦....
只是在梦中我看到卡片上的内容...
内容没有必要讲..
因为不可能发生....
前几天和昨天都有事情...
等下才continue update了....
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
suprise....
很多天没update我的blog了...
因为又懒又累...
前几天的点点滴滴都忘了...
老了...
记忆力衰退了....
应该是没有什么特别的事....
明天是叶老师的生日...
我们提早今天在学校为老师庆祝...
买了ice cream ceke...
还叫他们特地买那种吹不灭的蜡烛...
haha....^^
感觉蛮不错的...
很久没有大家一起聚在老师那小小的辅导室....
回想去年和2009年的ajk们一起到老师的家庆祝...
真的很怀念....
很喜欢和他们在一起疯狂的时间和感觉...
很想念他们那班人哦...
他们就像我的哥哥姐姐一样...
他们都很照顾我...
就算他们毕业了...
但偶尔我们还会出去喝喝茶...
希望我们的友谊不变啦....
今天放学时theng来学校找我....
很意外....
从来都没想过他会来找我...
他载我回家...
一路上我们聊了很多....
也知道了他最近的状况....
虽然我不是男的...
但他所说的我不是只是傻傻懂他讲什么...
我可以体会他的感觉...
因为我曾经亲身体验过...
真的很难受....
要是没有朋友在身旁会更加痛苦...
所以我感觉他很幸福...
当他有事时...
他的身旁都会有一大班的好兄弟和好姐妹帮他...
在过程中怎样都会聊到你...
当时真的很想你...
但并没有因为你而影响我的心情.....
是我真的做到了吗?
还是以前的我慢慢回来了?
算了...
我好好地把你保留在我的心就够了....
想起了....
星期六晚时很生气....
我不喜欢别人拿我来做比较...
从小就超讨厌了...
你们爱比是你们的事...
别牵涉我...
我可以因为这么小事而恨一个人...
我知道我不是最好的....
但每一次我都有尽力做到最好...
我还在学习的过程中...
每一次meeting后...
我心里都不好受...
一直责怪我自己会犯那样的错误....
有好几次我都哭了...
也好几次我不想干了...
想resign....
以前的club counselling是让我觉得窝心的...
给我很多的美好回忆和让我开心的...
可是今年里我感觉到是压力...
我可以不介意别人的指指点点和脸色...
我不知该好好珍惜这个机会让我学习...
还是选择放下一切...
离开那些压力....
很难忍....
受够了...
因为又懒又累...
前几天的点点滴滴都忘了...
老了...
记忆力衰退了....
应该是没有什么特别的事....
明天是叶老师的生日...
我们提早今天在学校为老师庆祝...
买了ice cream ceke...
还叫他们特地买那种吹不灭的蜡烛...
haha....^^
感觉蛮不错的...
很久没有大家一起聚在老师那小小的辅导室....
回想去年和2009年的ajk们一起到老师的家庆祝...
真的很怀念....
很喜欢和他们在一起疯狂的时间和感觉...
很想念他们那班人哦...
他们就像我的哥哥姐姐一样...
他们都很照顾我...
就算他们毕业了...
但偶尔我们还会出去喝喝茶...
希望我们的友谊不变啦....
今天放学时theng来学校找我....
很意外....
从来都没想过他会来找我...
他载我回家...
一路上我们聊了很多....
也知道了他最近的状况....
虽然我不是男的...
但他所说的我不是只是傻傻懂他讲什么...
我可以体会他的感觉...
因为我曾经亲身体验过...
真的很难受....
要是没有朋友在身旁会更加痛苦...
所以我感觉他很幸福...
当他有事时...
他的身旁都会有一大班的好兄弟和好姐妹帮他...
在过程中怎样都会聊到你...
当时真的很想你...
但并没有因为你而影响我的心情.....
是我真的做到了吗?
还是以前的我慢慢回来了?
算了...
我好好地把你保留在我的心就够了....
想起了....
星期六晚时很生气....
我不喜欢别人拿我来做比较...
从小就超讨厌了...
你们爱比是你们的事...
别牵涉我...
我可以因为这么小事而恨一个人...
我知道我不是最好的....
但每一次我都有尽力做到最好...
我还在学习的过程中...
每一次meeting后...
我心里都不好受...
一直责怪我自己会犯那样的错误....
有好几次我都哭了...
也好几次我不想干了...
想resign....
以前的club counselling是让我觉得窝心的...
给我很多的美好回忆和让我开心的...
可是今年里我感觉到是压力...
我可以不介意别人的指指点点和脸色...
我不知该好好珍惜这个机会让我学习...
还是选择放下一切...
离开那些压力....
很难忍....
受够了...
Friday, April 2, 2010
看开了....
明天又去清明...
又没得去学校了...
明天超想去学校的...
很久没去karate的training了...
之前不是不想去...
是很多很多的原因让我无法出席...
已经跟主席讲一声了...
不然很大可能就要被开除了...
ming,chen....
刚才meeting时不是有意要用那种语气讲....
只是每次meeting时...
我都公私分明...
都会对ajk们严格的要求...
希望你们能体谅...
昨晚我好像有点怪怪...
被别人整了...
可是我却没生气...
反而还和他说谢谢和祝福他...
以前的我一定非常生气...
一定会臭骂他一顿...
而且会一直抱怨...
可是这次完全没有...
想起时也觉得都过了...
之前说要改过,
让自己变得更快乐就是看得开...
也许我的起点成功了...
continue这样的心态...
或许在未来我会更快乐...
hehe....^^
如果有一天我学会放手了...
那时也许我可以接受别人了...
但也是我爱你的方式....
我不会忘记你...
你永远都会留在我的心里...
这不是我对你的承诺....
我不会像其他人一样随便许下承诺....
又没得去学校了...
明天超想去学校的...
很久没去karate的training了...
之前不是不想去...
是很多很多的原因让我无法出席...
已经跟主席讲一声了...
不然很大可能就要被开除了...
ming,chen....
刚才meeting时不是有意要用那种语气讲....
只是每次meeting时...
我都公私分明...
都会对ajk们严格的要求...
希望你们能体谅...
昨晚我好像有点怪怪...
被别人整了...
可是我却没生气...
反而还和他说谢谢和祝福他...
以前的我一定非常生气...
一定会臭骂他一顿...
而且会一直抱怨...
可是这次完全没有...
想起时也觉得都过了...
之前说要改过,
让自己变得更快乐就是看得开...
也许我的起点成功了...
continue这样的心态...
或许在未来我会更快乐...
hehe....^^
如果有一天我学会放手了...
那时也许我可以接受别人了...
但也是我爱你的方式....
我不会忘记你...
你永远都会留在我的心里...
这不是我对你的承诺....
我不会像其他人一样随便许下承诺....
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
不爽....
昨天没去学校上课....
到外婆家清明哦...
去到时都没有人...
只有我们一家四口...
好怕怕...
每次都是我最后一个上香...
所以一直叫哥等我...
好象小孩子哦...
很快就回外婆家了...
由于没事做...
所以进厨房"帮"外婆...
hehe....^^
昨天也是我睡最多次的一天...
一直睡...
在外婆家睡了很多次...
醒来后一个小时又睡...
一直重复...
在车上也睡...
真的是猪...
回到家去补习后就上网...
在fb看到了很多东西...
非常不爽...
好想讲出来...
但只是很小事罢了...
只是我很care...
算了...不说...
你是不是瞎了眼...
还是你的品味变低了...
觉得你好像在污辱我...
你向条件差过我的人说出赞语...
亏你还说得出...
还想知道你说那些话时不会觉得恶心吗?
算了...
有点失望...
今天没什么事....
只是一直想起你的那个举动...
恶心....
觉得自己很小气...
可以为了小事而不开心....
今天是xiao huii生日...
祝她生日快乐...
快快乐乐....
在未来的一切顺顺利利...
在学校也看到她了...
haha...^^
到外婆家清明哦...
去到时都没有人...
只有我们一家四口...
好怕怕...
每次都是我最后一个上香...
所以一直叫哥等我...
好象小孩子哦...
很快就回外婆家了...
由于没事做...
所以进厨房"帮"外婆...
hehe....^^
昨天也是我睡最多次的一天...
一直睡...
在外婆家睡了很多次...
醒来后一个小时又睡...
一直重复...
在车上也睡...
真的是猪...
回到家去补习后就上网...
在fb看到了很多东西...
非常不爽...
好想讲出来...
但只是很小事罢了...
只是我很care...
算了...不说...
你是不是瞎了眼...
还是你的品味变低了...
觉得你好像在污辱我...
你向条件差过我的人说出赞语...
亏你还说得出...
还想知道你说那些话时不会觉得恶心吗?
算了...
有点失望...
今天没什么事....
只是一直想起你的那个举动...
恶心....
觉得自己很小气...
可以为了小事而不开心....
今天是xiao huii生日...
祝她生日快乐...
快快乐乐....
在未来的一切顺顺利利...
在学校也看到她了...
haha...^^
Monday, March 29, 2010
jealous...
我还在乎....
看到你在chen的照片留comment....
当时的感觉就是不爽...
不是不爽chen...
我不爽你....
要你留comment给我或关心我很难吗?
从以前你就很少在网络世界承认我...
其实没什么大不了....
可是我就是在意....
以前曾经为了这些和你吵架...
或许你不知道你的小小动作可以影响我...
或许可以让我心情不好...
但有时候可以让我有信心...
甚至是种推动力...
要是你有留comment给我...
就算只是短短的几个字...
我也会很开心....
这几天想起我们在一起的快乐时光...
好怀念...
但只能回味...
很多很多开心的事就这样结束...
算了吧...
只让我回味也是好事...
至少可以减轻那个疼....
看到你在chen的照片留comment....
当时的感觉就是不爽...
不是不爽chen...
我不爽你....
要你留comment给我或关心我很难吗?
从以前你就很少在网络世界承认我...
其实没什么大不了....
可是我就是在意....
以前曾经为了这些和你吵架...
或许你不知道你的小小动作可以影响我...
或许可以让我心情不好...
但有时候可以让我有信心...
甚至是种推动力...
要是你有留comment给我...
就算只是短短的几个字...
我也会很开心....
这几天想起我们在一起的快乐时光...
好怀念...
但只能回味...
很多很多开心的事就这样结束...
算了吧...
只让我回味也是好事...
至少可以减轻那个疼....
Saturday, March 27, 2010
i will remember you....
今天所有的都好乱...
全都乱了...
一切变了...
觉得自己傻...
但都值得...
只因为我爱你...
如果有一天你身边所有的人都离开你了...
但我不会离开...
就算只是以朋友的身份...
我都愿意...
或许你认为分开后不能再成为朋友...
但我会一直把你当朋友...
在fb听到一首歌...
很动听...
I will remember you...
好想把这首歌送给你...
只想告诉你我会永远记得你,
我对你的思念...
小时候的很多小小愿望都无法达成...
已经是遗憾了...
这次我不会再错过了...
不要再有任何遗憾了...
不管再怎么辛苦...
我还是一定要让我的愿望成真...
mummy,我不会因为你的一句话而影响我...
我会坚持到底....
前晚又和en讲了一个小时多的电话...
聊了很多....
心情也好多了...
其实有好几次都好想哭...
但是当时很夜了...
要是我再哭...
隔天的眼睛一定肿得像熊猫...
所以我都忍住...
我还有好多好多东西要和你分享...
都不够时间...
希望有一天我们可以从早聊到晚...
把所有的不开心都讲出来....
昨天ban告诉我他的身体状况...
好意外...
别想太多...
一切会没事的...
不管结果会是如何...
你都一定要告诉我们...
我们永远都是朋友...
你一定要坚强哦...
全都乱了...
一切变了...
觉得自己傻...
但都值得...
只因为我爱你...
如果有一天你身边所有的人都离开你了...
但我不会离开...
就算只是以朋友的身份...
我都愿意...
或许你认为分开后不能再成为朋友...
但我会一直把你当朋友...
在fb听到一首歌...
很动听...
I will remember you...
好想把这首歌送给你...
只想告诉你我会永远记得你,
我对你的思念...
小时候的很多小小愿望都无法达成...
已经是遗憾了...
这次我不会再错过了...
不要再有任何遗憾了...
不管再怎么辛苦...
我还是一定要让我的愿望成真...
mummy,我不会因为你的一句话而影响我...
我会坚持到底....
前晚又和en讲了一个小时多的电话...
聊了很多....
心情也好多了...
其实有好几次都好想哭...
但是当时很夜了...
要是我再哭...
隔天的眼睛一定肿得像熊猫...
所以我都忍住...
我还有好多好多东西要和你分享...
都不够时间...
希望有一天我们可以从早聊到晚...
把所有的不开心都讲出来....
昨天ban告诉我他的身体状况...
好意外...
别想太多...
一切会没事的...
不管结果会是如何...
你都一定要告诉我们...
我们永远都是朋友...
你一定要坚强哦...
Thursday, March 25, 2010
勇气???
刚从学校回来...
以前就不怎么喜欢色组练习...
可是今年不这样想了...
反而很想积极做好一切...
毕竟最后一年了...
我是真的有勇气吗?
当其他人问起你...
我可以很坦然地告诉他们没有了...
真的是勇气吗?
当我讲没有了的时候...
我的心有疼那么一下下...
过后在回家的路程就一直想起你...
让一切顺其自然吧!
如果时间可以让我放下就让它吧...
如果不能就一辈子不能...
累了...
不想再勉强自己了....
看见别人因为爱情受了更大的伤害...
我的伤害不比他们的严重...
但都有共同点...
只要真心付出,真心爱过一人....
要放下一切并不是像嘴巴说的那么容易...
自己受过伤害...
知道朋友被爱情伤害了...
会不爽,觉得不值得...
可是自己却念念不忘一位伤害过自己的人...
觉得自己好失败哦....
jie en,
如果你补习完后有过来看我的blog...
告诉你我今晚补习补到10pm...
所以迟点打给你...
不好意思...
刚才忘了告诉你...^^
以前就不怎么喜欢色组练习...
可是今年不这样想了...
反而很想积极做好一切...
毕竟最后一年了...
我是真的有勇气吗?
当其他人问起你...
我可以很坦然地告诉他们没有了...
真的是勇气吗?
当我讲没有了的时候...
我的心有疼那么一下下...
过后在回家的路程就一直想起你...
让一切顺其自然吧!
如果时间可以让我放下就让它吧...
如果不能就一辈子不能...
累了...
不想再勉强自己了....
看见别人因为爱情受了更大的伤害...
我的伤害不比他们的严重...
但都有共同点...
只要真心付出,真心爱过一人....
要放下一切并不是像嘴巴说的那么容易...
自己受过伤害...
知道朋友被爱情伤害了...
会不爽,觉得不值得...
可是自己却念念不忘一位伤害过自己的人...
觉得自己好失败哦....
jie en,
如果你补习完后有过来看我的blog...
告诉你我今晚补习补到10pm...
所以迟点打给你...
不好意思...
刚才忘了告诉你...^^
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
secret...
都已经这么久了...
最终我还是选择continue默默爱你...
就让它自然而然慢慢变成对你没感觉...
不要刻意忘记你...
只要越想放下一切就会越对你有感觉...
不再期望任何东西了...
不再期望你的回报了...
就算别人认为我傻了...
傻也是因为你...
值得不值得都算了吧...
我的默默并不代表我在等你...
因为知道你不值得让我等...
我承认对你还有感觉...
还念念不忘你...
但我只会隐藏在我的心里...
不让你知道...
以前我所做的一切都只因为我爱你...
或许你认为是任性...
那也是你的事了...
我对你的爱并不像其他人的爱那么伟大...
反正都不重要了...
我只会默默爱你...
过我自己的生活...
要自己过得更快乐和幸福...
就是给你最好的关怀...
而并不是要和你炫耀...
最终我还是选择continue默默爱你...
就让它自然而然慢慢变成对你没感觉...
不要刻意忘记你...
只要越想放下一切就会越对你有感觉...
不再期望任何东西了...
不再期望你的回报了...
就算别人认为我傻了...
傻也是因为你...
值得不值得都算了吧...
我的默默并不代表我在等你...
因为知道你不值得让我等...
我承认对你还有感觉...
还念念不忘你...
但我只会隐藏在我的心里...
不让你知道...
以前我所做的一切都只因为我爱你...
或许你认为是任性...
那也是你的事了...
我对你的爱并不像其他人的爱那么伟大...
反正都不重要了...
我只会默默爱你...
过我自己的生活...
要自己过得更快乐和幸福...
就是给你最好的关怀...
而并不是要和你炫耀...
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
自欺欺人
今天我的头脑应该烧坏了...
想起了很多东西...
当知道你的甜言蜜语不再是为我说...
而我看到的是随便对其他女生说...
我的心真的很疼...
每一次的疼就像你离我远远而去的时刻...
已过了很久...
但每一次就像刚发生不久...
en老是劝我要对自己有信心...
好几次我都以为我做到了...
但最近发现我的信心好像是场谎言...
我的信心是为了要骗我自己...
不再让自己痛苦...
每次对自己说一定要做到时...
头脑就会有你...
好不容易把我喜欢你变成真的爱你...
第一次爱一个人...
但得不到你长久的爱...
也就算了吧...
我越来越怀疑自己的所有了
但不是身边的人...
怀疑自己的能力...
而不是对自己有信心...
这不是我...
你除了带给我很大的伤痛...
也带了更深和很难离开我的阴影...
不再对自己有信心了...
好想恨你...
但我做不到...
因为我无法从爱你变恨你...
想起了很多东西...
当知道你的甜言蜜语不再是为我说...
而我看到的是随便对其他女生说...
我的心真的很疼...
每一次的疼就像你离我远远而去的时刻...
已过了很久...
但每一次就像刚发生不久...
en老是劝我要对自己有信心...
好几次我都以为我做到了...
但最近发现我的信心好像是场谎言...
我的信心是为了要骗我自己...
不再让自己痛苦...
每次对自己说一定要做到时...
头脑就会有你...
好不容易把我喜欢你变成真的爱你...
第一次爱一个人...
但得不到你长久的爱...
也就算了吧...
我越来越怀疑自己的所有了
但不是身边的人...
怀疑自己的能力...
而不是对自己有信心...
这不是我...
你除了带给我很大的伤痛...
也带了更深和很难离开我的阴影...
不再对自己有信心了...
好想恨你...
但我做不到...
因为我无法从爱你变恨你...
Monday, March 22, 2010
remember....
今天en上台拿奖...
当时她比赛完后就打电话给我报喜...
还听到她的气喘声....
应该才从战场上下来不久吧...
想起以前你去比赛时....
就算你得奖了...
你也不会马上打电话给我...
反而消息无踪...
几天几夜联络不上你...
所以以前你去比赛时我的心情都会不好...
或许我比不上你的家人...
也许在你心里只能排第二...
但很怀疑在你去比赛的那一刻你还记得我吗...
我们在一起的时刻你有真心爱过我吗??
我坚持相信你曾经有....
我的坚持会很傻吗?
或许已经过去了...
我更不应该care了...
但我放不下...
看来要我放下是很难...
或许我会选择默默喜欢你...
值得吗??
当时她比赛完后就打电话给我报喜...
还听到她的气喘声....
应该才从战场上下来不久吧...
想起以前你去比赛时....
就算你得奖了...
你也不会马上打电话给我...
反而消息无踪...
几天几夜联络不上你...
所以以前你去比赛时我的心情都会不好...
或许我比不上你的家人...
也许在你心里只能排第二...
但很怀疑在你去比赛的那一刻你还记得我吗...
我们在一起的时刻你有真心爱过我吗??
我坚持相信你曾经有....
我的坚持会很傻吗?
或许已经过去了...
我更不应该care了...
但我放不下...
看来要我放下是很难...
或许我会选择默默喜欢你...
值得吗??
Sunday, March 21, 2010
cry....
从学校回来了....
在学校好难入眠...
滚到3am才睡,5am又醒了...
本来早就可以睡了...
可是被他们的鬼故事吓到睡不着...
虽然只睡两个小时可是可以撑到3pm...
回到家身体已经是软了...
辛苦归辛苦...
虽然我昨晚才过去duty...
但我有很多感触...
看到老师们和营员们的用心...
有点感动...
坦白讲有点后悔没有参加...
但我还是学到东西...
昨晚已经被某人感动到眼红了...
那小姐应该知道我在讲她吧...
haha....^^
今天我的眼睛好累哦...
眼泪不断地流...
虽然我不是营员...
但他们哭几次我就哭几次....
他们感动了我...
好几次刚哭完又再被其他人感动到哭...
场面真的很感人和心酸...
他们都很棒...
为了好事而哭是值得的...
认识jie en以来...
知道她的内心不如她的外表坚强...
有时还比我弱....^^
要是给她看到这一句....
她也许会把我"杀"了....
hehe...
但她今天很棒...
让我很意外...
今天她很坚强做到最好...
而且我也不用等了...
WL问我能像她一样在台上哭了又可以讲完一切....
我回答他也许我会崩溃...
并不简单...
虽然她年纪小小...
只小我一岁罢了...
有时候觉得她都可以做到了...
更何况是我...
但在她面前我可以很轻松露出我最弱的一面...
我好想弄她傻傻在电脑面前哭哦...
好坏哦...开玩笑...
想告诉她其实她早已列为我好朋友的名单里了....
只是以前不想让她知道...
她一定要开心哦...
不管以后面对什么不开心...
想起今天会让你开心的哦...
hehe....^^
很累哦...
不说了...
to be continue.....
在学校好难入眠...
滚到3am才睡,5am又醒了...
本来早就可以睡了...
可是被他们的鬼故事吓到睡不着...
虽然只睡两个小时可是可以撑到3pm...
回到家身体已经是软了...
辛苦归辛苦...
虽然我昨晚才过去duty...
但我有很多感触...
看到老师们和营员们的用心...
有点感动...
坦白讲有点后悔没有参加...
但我还是学到东西...
昨晚已经被某人感动到眼红了...
那小姐应该知道我在讲她吧...
haha....^^
今天我的眼睛好累哦...
眼泪不断地流...
虽然我不是营员...
但他们哭几次我就哭几次....
他们感动了我...
好几次刚哭完又再被其他人感动到哭...
场面真的很感人和心酸...
他们都很棒...
为了好事而哭是值得的...
认识jie en以来...
知道她的内心不如她的外表坚强...
有时还比我弱....^^
要是给她看到这一句....
她也许会把我"杀"了....
hehe...
但她今天很棒...
让我很意外...
今天她很坚强做到最好...
而且我也不用等了...
WL问我能像她一样在台上哭了又可以讲完一切....
我回答他也许我会崩溃...
并不简单...
虽然她年纪小小...
只小我一岁罢了...
有时候觉得她都可以做到了...
更何况是我...
但在她面前我可以很轻松露出我最弱的一面...
我好想弄她傻傻在电脑面前哭哦...
好坏哦...开玩笑...
想告诉她其实她早已列为我好朋友的名单里了....
只是以前不想让她知道...
她一定要开心哦...
不管以后面对什么不开心...
想起今天会让你开心的哦...
hehe....^^
很累哦...
不说了...
to be continue.....
Saturday, March 20, 2010
second....
前晚你又回到我梦里...
我梦见你...
那是一场再也不可能发生的美梦...
我是多么的不想醒过来...
这个月里已经是第二次梦到你...
前几个月也好多次了....
算了吧!
反正一切都是梦...
昨晚没事做...
看回以前你send给我的每一封message....
我的inbox都快要爆了...
里面存着的都是我们还在一起时到上个星期你send给我所有的message....
我就是舍不得delete所有...
每当想要delete时...
眼泪就会掉下来...
看回这些message时...
那种感觉还是一样...
还记得当时所发生的一切...
不懂当时为什么老是爱跟你吵架...
一直都在自责...
要是再有第二次...
我不会再像以前了...
不会为了小事而和你吵架...
当时太愚蠢了...
就连我生日时也要和你吵才甘愿...
想起时....
觉得当时自己很好笑...
也知道自己做错了...
但不会有第二次了...
也许chen说得对...
就算我们又在一起也只有伤害...
念念不忘一位不再爱自己的人...
就像把石头绑在自己的脚上...
自讨苦吃....
我早就应该放下一切了...
好傻哦...
刚才听mummy说可以开始为我明年的新生活而做准备了...
有点暗爽...
也许mummy赞同了我的选择...
我应该要努力读书...
尤其是trial exam...
一定要做到最好....
今晚要去学校过夜了...
明天才回来...
也因为这样...
我没得去明天的同学会...
等了好久....
但没得去...
不说了...
要去准备了....
我梦见你...
那是一场再也不可能发生的美梦...
我是多么的不想醒过来...
这个月里已经是第二次梦到你...
前几个月也好多次了....
算了吧!
反正一切都是梦...
昨晚没事做...
看回以前你send给我的每一封message....
我的inbox都快要爆了...
里面存着的都是我们还在一起时到上个星期你send给我所有的message....
我就是舍不得delete所有...
每当想要delete时...
眼泪就会掉下来...
看回这些message时...
那种感觉还是一样...
还记得当时所发生的一切...
不懂当时为什么老是爱跟你吵架...
一直都在自责...
要是再有第二次...
我不会再像以前了...
不会为了小事而和你吵架...
当时太愚蠢了...
就连我生日时也要和你吵才甘愿...
想起时....
觉得当时自己很好笑...
也知道自己做错了...
但不会有第二次了...
也许chen说得对...
就算我们又在一起也只有伤害...
念念不忘一位不再爱自己的人...
就像把石头绑在自己的脚上...
自讨苦吃....
我早就应该放下一切了...
好傻哦...
刚才听mummy说可以开始为我明年的新生活而做准备了...
有点暗爽...
也许mummy赞同了我的选择...
我应该要努力读书...
尤其是trial exam...
一定要做到最好....
今晚要去学校过夜了...
明天才回来...
也因为这样...
我没得去明天的同学会...
等了好久....
但没得去...
不说了...
要去准备了....
Friday, March 19, 2010
friendship.....
一切又回到原点...
又要再次努力放下一切...
其实一直以来我都在执着吗??
那些我不懂的理由真的很重要吗???
我是真的很想知道吗??
知道了我会好过吗??
我可以默默爱你而不求你的回报吗??
我真的不期待你的回报吗??
还是我一直都在骗我自己??
或许我从来都没试过放下....
看到ping post的notes...
觉得他说的很对...
有一句是我一直以来都没做到的...
"给对方最好的关怀就是变得更好,更强大,更幸福"
也许我现在应该可以想通那么一点...
应该又不是在骗我自己了吧?
我真的只需要时间吗??
还是我一直在期待你的关心,爱??
我有必要再这样了吗??
我应该选择把你给忘了还是默默爱你???
chen,觉得ping post的notes很好...
你不妨去读一读...
不是想刺激你或让你伤心...
只觉得说得对...
也想和你说声谢谢...
知道你的状况也不是很好...
但你还可以安慰我...
你也要加油哦...
ming呢,感觉到她的关心...
感觉她最近好象有事烦...
虽然不知道什么事...
但想告诉她我们好朋友都一直在你旁边....
至于mooi....
谢谢她都没有告诉其他人关于我的事...
就算有也不会怪她,只要continue保密...
jie en...
在她的面前我可以毫无保留地告诉她...
她是很好的听众者...
有时她静静和耐心地听我诉苦就让我好多了....
好希望她可以当我一辈子的听众者...
好贪心哦....
TCW....(未来physics tuitor)
谢谢她愿意和我分享她的经验...
让我知道原来不只我一个人会这样...
huii....
她常鼓励我...
安慰我...
好想念她哦...
也很喜欢我们曾经一起疯狂的时候和感觉...
而joshin呢...
其实好想安慰她...
但又怕时间不对...
怕又让她掉眼泪...
其实她应该比我们还要更难受...
每天还要面对他...
你也要加油....^^
ping,theng n brandon....
他们就像我的哥哥一样...
事情不久后,他们是我第一个诉苦的对象...
还记得当时很狼狈...
在他们面前哭了....
他们也安慰我...
让我懂那么一点男生的想法...
也把一粒apple送给他们三个share....
hehe....^^
hooi....
在去年年尾是一直在身旁安慰我...
也不知道为什么在他的面前时就好想哭...
想把所有的不快乐都哭出来...
zf...
算是我的恩人吧...
"恩人"??好俗哦....
就算他知道我的固执不肯听他的劝告...
但他没有不理会我的安全...
还确保我全程的安全...
我当时的行为应该让他很气吧...
sorry,我曾经做出这么危险的行动...
如我有遗漏,忘了谁,别介意哦...
我的朋友们....
谢谢一直有你们在我身旁...
我们就快要毕业了...
毕业后也不要忘了大家...
友谊万岁...
在我毕业前会给你们意外惊喜...
现在不告诉你们...
要让你们心痒痒...
hehe....^^
又要再次努力放下一切...
其实一直以来我都在执着吗??
那些我不懂的理由真的很重要吗???
我是真的很想知道吗??
知道了我会好过吗??
我可以默默爱你而不求你的回报吗??
我真的不期待你的回报吗??
还是我一直都在骗我自己??
或许我从来都没试过放下....
看到ping post的notes...
觉得他说的很对...
有一句是我一直以来都没做到的...
"给对方最好的关怀就是变得更好,更强大,更幸福"
也许我现在应该可以想通那么一点...
应该又不是在骗我自己了吧?
我真的只需要时间吗??
还是我一直在期待你的关心,爱??
我有必要再这样了吗??
我应该选择把你给忘了还是默默爱你???
chen,觉得ping post的notes很好...
你不妨去读一读...
不是想刺激你或让你伤心...
只觉得说得对...
也想和你说声谢谢...
知道你的状况也不是很好...
但你还可以安慰我...
你也要加油哦...
ming呢,感觉到她的关心...
感觉她最近好象有事烦...
虽然不知道什么事...
但想告诉她我们好朋友都一直在你旁边....
至于mooi....
谢谢她都没有告诉其他人关于我的事...
就算有也不会怪她,只要continue保密...
jie en...
在她的面前我可以毫无保留地告诉她...
她是很好的听众者...
有时她静静和耐心地听我诉苦就让我好多了....
好希望她可以当我一辈子的听众者...
好贪心哦....
TCW....(未来physics tuitor)
谢谢她愿意和我分享她的经验...
让我知道原来不只我一个人会这样...
huii....
她常鼓励我...
安慰我...
好想念她哦...
也很喜欢我们曾经一起疯狂的时候和感觉...
而joshin呢...
其实好想安慰她...
但又怕时间不对...
怕又让她掉眼泪...
其实她应该比我们还要更难受...
每天还要面对他...
你也要加油....^^
ping,theng n brandon....
他们就像我的哥哥一样...
事情不久后,他们是我第一个诉苦的对象...
还记得当时很狼狈...
在他们面前哭了....
他们也安慰我...
让我懂那么一点男生的想法...
也把一粒apple送给他们三个share....
hehe....^^
hooi....
在去年年尾是一直在身旁安慰我...
也不知道为什么在他的面前时就好想哭...
想把所有的不快乐都哭出来...
zf...
算是我的恩人吧...
"恩人"??好俗哦....
就算他知道我的固执不肯听他的劝告...
但他没有不理会我的安全...
还确保我全程的安全...
我当时的行为应该让他很气吧...
sorry,我曾经做出这么危险的行动...
如我有遗漏,忘了谁,别介意哦...
我的朋友们....
谢谢一直有你们在我身旁...
我们就快要毕业了...
毕业后也不要忘了大家...
友谊万岁...
在我毕业前会给你们意外惊喜...
现在不告诉你们...
要让你们心痒痒...
hehe....^^
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
english....
今天和derrick还有mao到erican...
还有felicia...
学到的还蛮多...
也start了好久没动的"engine"...
其实之前也想过要到erican修英文了...
今天回来后发现他们的教学方式还不错...
是值得consider的...
但有种种的原因阻碍...
所以还需要consider...
想学好英文有很多原因...
除了为了自己的将来...
其中之一也是因为你...
你变成了我的推动力...
和你在一起的那一年多里...
我的英文进步了很多...
因为你不懂中文...
所以我们的沟通语言只有英文...
但对我来说是好事...
你离开后很不习惯没有你在旁边教导我...
只到现在还是不习惯...
你灌输了我用英文...
我一直认为英文可以保存我们之间的回忆...
我想保存我们之间的所有...
就算只能回想和回味...
你变成了我的推动力...
在fb不肯告诉其他人Ti Amero的意识...
因为那曾经是我们的回忆和secret...
从我口中说出的Ti Amero只能向你说...
希望你可以不要向你未来的另一半说这句话...
感觉你最近好像有了喜欢的对象...
虽然没女朋友...
但心里还是有种莫名其妙的感觉...
应该是有点不爽...
那是你的事了...
与我无关...
为什么我还要care...
不可以这样了...
这样只会让我辛苦罢了...
还有felicia...
学到的还蛮多...
也start了好久没动的"engine"...
其实之前也想过要到erican修英文了...
今天回来后发现他们的教学方式还不错...
是值得consider的...
但有种种的原因阻碍...
所以还需要consider...
想学好英文有很多原因...
除了为了自己的将来...
其中之一也是因为你...
你变成了我的推动力...
和你在一起的那一年多里...
我的英文进步了很多...
因为你不懂中文...
所以我们的沟通语言只有英文...
但对我来说是好事...
你离开后很不习惯没有你在旁边教导我...
只到现在还是不习惯...
你灌输了我用英文...
我一直认为英文可以保存我们之间的回忆...
我想保存我们之间的所有...
就算只能回想和回味...
你变成了我的推动力...
在fb不肯告诉其他人Ti Amero的意识...
因为那曾经是我们的回忆和secret...
从我口中说出的Ti Amero只能向你说...
希望你可以不要向你未来的另一半说这句话...
感觉你最近好像有了喜欢的对象...
虽然没女朋友...
但心里还是有种莫名其妙的感觉...
应该是有点不爽...
那是你的事了...
与我无关...
为什么我还要care...
不可以这样了...
这样只会让我辛苦罢了...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Ti Amero
昨天也没什么特别....
so没有update我的blog....
只是觉得空虚...
想到怎么没跟你sms了...
也许上隐了...
那种感觉就像以前我们在一起不久后的感觉...
突然好想你...
我是怎么了...
我那里可以这样...
可是我就是骗不到我自己...
明明就想念嘛...
今天很早就起床去学校了...
其实之前还蛮期待的...
毕竟是最后一年老师颁发PRS的徽章给我们了...
所以刚才特别珍惜那时刻...
坦白讲今天只是还好罢了,不是很好...
但无所谓...
毕竟这只是起点...
只要我们再continue加油...
我们一定可以做到最好...
我属于比较急性的人...
谢谢sheau huey一直在旁边安抚我...
我才冷静下来...
看到senior们回来...
让我想起你...
去年你也是以senoir的身份回来...
一直想如果perlantinkan PRS是在saturday举行...
或许你会回来...
或许我有机会见到你...
这全都只是或许...
我们之间的很多回忆都在club counselling...
我不知道是以什么方法撑到现在...
也许是用保存我们之间的回忆吧...
还是每次活动时都幻想你的出现...
还记得我们第一次牵手也是在club counselling...
我们在玩游戏...
当时我生病了...
只能站在树下避免昏倒...
而你也在树下...
你约我过去玩...
看见大家玩得很开心所以就过去了...
因为游戏是必须牵手...
所以我们就第一次牵手...
那是美好的回忆...
但都已过去了...
已经无法再牵你的手了...
只能回味我们牵手时的感觉...
我承认我对你还有感觉
Ti Amero....
我选择不再告诉你这句话了...
只要你还记得...
我相信你明白这句话的意识...
在将来不要只对另一半说
I love u...
Ti Amero会来得比较感动...
今天忘了用自己的camera拍照...
所以今天没照片看...
因为刚才玩到太high了...
下次吧...
累了....
so没有update我的blog....
只是觉得空虚...
想到怎么没跟你sms了...
也许上隐了...
那种感觉就像以前我们在一起不久后的感觉...
突然好想你...
我是怎么了...
我那里可以这样...
可是我就是骗不到我自己...
明明就想念嘛...
今天很早就起床去学校了...
其实之前还蛮期待的...
毕竟是最后一年老师颁发PRS的徽章给我们了...
所以刚才特别珍惜那时刻...
坦白讲今天只是还好罢了,不是很好...
但无所谓...
毕竟这只是起点...
只要我们再continue加油...
我们一定可以做到最好...
我属于比较急性的人...
谢谢sheau huey一直在旁边安抚我...
我才冷静下来...
看到senior们回来...
让我想起你...
去年你也是以senoir的身份回来...
一直想如果perlantinkan PRS是在saturday举行...
或许你会回来...
或许我有机会见到你...
这全都只是或许...
我们之间的很多回忆都在club counselling...
我不知道是以什么方法撑到现在...
也许是用保存我们之间的回忆吧...
还是每次活动时都幻想你的出现...
还记得我们第一次牵手也是在club counselling...
我们在玩游戏...
当时我生病了...
只能站在树下避免昏倒...
而你也在树下...
你约我过去玩...
看见大家玩得很开心所以就过去了...
因为游戏是必须牵手...
所以我们就第一次牵手...
那是美好的回忆...
但都已过去了...
已经无法再牵你的手了...
只能回味我们牵手时的感觉...
我承认我对你还有感觉
Ti Amero....
我选择不再告诉你这句话了...
只要你还记得...
我相信你明白这句话的意识...
在将来不要只对另一半说
I love u...
Ti Amero会来得比较感动...
今天忘了用自己的camera拍照...
所以今天没照片看...
因为刚才玩到太high了...
下次吧...
累了....
Monday, March 15, 2010
SMS....
昨天到chung ling参加PRS Camp...
并没有认识到新朋友...
但很巧的遇见多年不见小学同学...
也和朋友拍了很多照片...
老师给的讲座真的让我领悟和学了很多....
原来创伤后必需在一个月内治好...
不然后果可不堪设想了....
我就是其中一个吗?
老师讲的现象几乎都发生在我身上...
开始担心了...
已经半年了....
这些现象一直不断的发生...
易倦,记忆力变差,发恶梦,想离开这里...
这一切不断地发生...
好怕这些现象会一直follow我
我不想要这些影响我的前途...
难道真的要找老师辅导我吗?
我很怕...
当时快要哭了但我还是忍住...
要回时发生一些不愉快的小事...
但还是过了...
还是想对CH说sorry....
过后收到你missed call我...
所以就send msg给你...
过后的心情都被你弄乱了...
晚上就去family dinner...
空手去却拿着红包回来...
很开心...
很喜欢大家聚在一起的感觉...
大家有说有笑....
回来后和你sms很久,也聊了很多....
我的心情好多了....
今天一大清早就起来回去外婆家...
也和mummy吵架...
但都不管...
收到珍的msg....
也许她说的都没错...
也许之前是我太包容你了...
谢谢珍的关心...
珍也要加油哦...
下午也和你sms聊了很多...
心情真的好很多了...
有一句话让我很敏感...
"u tot i already have gf r?"
你想我告诉我什么....
还是我想多了...
但高兴知道你还没有gf...
又不管我的事...
为什么会感到开心
i would like to say thanks to you,J...
because u sms with me...
nw i m happy....
i knw u r nt happy...
sorry for cant help u...
bt wish u be happy....
smile....^^
并没有认识到新朋友...
但很巧的遇见多年不见小学同学...
也和朋友拍了很多照片...
老师给的讲座真的让我领悟和学了很多....
原来创伤后必需在一个月内治好...
不然后果可不堪设想了....
我就是其中一个吗?
老师讲的现象几乎都发生在我身上...
开始担心了...
已经半年了....
这些现象一直不断的发生...
易倦,记忆力变差,发恶梦,想离开这里...
这一切不断地发生...
好怕这些现象会一直follow我
我不想要这些影响我的前途...
难道真的要找老师辅导我吗?
我很怕...
当时快要哭了但我还是忍住...
要回时发生一些不愉快的小事...
但还是过了...
还是想对CH说sorry....
过后收到你missed call我...
所以就send msg给你...
过后的心情都被你弄乱了...
晚上就去family dinner...
空手去却拿着红包回来...
很开心...
很喜欢大家聚在一起的感觉...
大家有说有笑....
回来后和你sms很久,也聊了很多....
我的心情好多了....
今天一大清早就起来回去外婆家...
也和mummy吵架...
但都不管...
收到珍的msg....
也许她说的都没错...
也许之前是我太包容你了...
谢谢珍的关心...
珍也要加油哦...
下午也和你sms聊了很多...
心情真的好很多了...
有一句话让我很敏感...
"u tot i already have gf r?"
你想我告诉我什么....
还是我想多了...
但高兴知道你还没有gf...
又不管我的事...
为什么会感到开心
i would like to say thanks to you,J...
because u sms with me...
nw i m happy....
i knw u r nt happy...
sorry for cant help u...
bt wish u be happy....
smile....^^
Friday, March 12, 2010
长大....
前两天都很累...
很早就睡了,so没有update我的blog...
昨天带camera去学校...
拍了好多照片...
而且效果非常满意...
好开心...
刚开始还担心会冷场...
但大家越拍就越high...
在学校的日子真的很好...
去年的SPM的考生回去学校领成绩...
站在礼堂里看到好多种表情...
不管是好坏...
只要有付出,一切都是值得的...
他们的回来给我是种推动力...
让我觉得已经不早了...
是时候开始读书了...
考得好成绩不是为了要show off什么...
只是觉得对自己的要求...
要做就要做到最好...
但如果成绩不能如我所愿...
也要接受....
哭也改变不了结局...
只要我有努力付出一切都是值得的...
mummy问我真的要一个人去KL读书?不怕?
我想也没想说我不怕,真的很想去...
也许从小就没有姐妹,只有brother...
再加上17年以来发生的点点滴滴...
让我学会了可以独自一个人适应不一样的环境...
但这个性格有好也有坏...
坏的是变成不喜欢别人follow我的decision....
一直在努力改变这个坏想法...
想起...
去年一个人和其他从不一样学校的学生到sabah参加PRS Camp后....
我学会了怎样独自面对问题和想办法解决....
在airport时知道我是penang代表唯一的华人...
当时傻了...
很想回家...
但我还是决定去...
还记得第一天时很陌生,心情很乱....
所以就打电话给叶老师报平安...
那一通电话让我很感动....
由于当时身旁没有亲人...
所以老师短短的关心让我冷静和感动...
过后自己一个人冷静想了几个小时...
觉得这样下去不是办法,还有4天要过...
到了晚上和大家都开始混成一团了...
过后就和大家混得越来越熟了...
甚至很不想回去...
当时第一次体会到Satu Malaysia的感觉....
和不同种族的人在一起...
感觉是不一样的...
留下很多回忆...
很认识了一班好朋友..
突然好想念他们...
好久没见到他们了...
从面对语言障碍的第一天....
至到最后一天...
有人告诉我讲话的语气很像本土人...
我成功了...
我终于做到了....
所以我有信心,不再害怕...
也许开始会面对问题....
但我相信我可以克服...
mummy,我真的很想去那间college读书...
我对我自己有信心....
原本已经计划好假期要读书的...
但假期很忙...
一直要往学校跑,还过夜呢.....
但还是会依照我的读书计划...
只是没办法每天进行...
为了我的将来...
我一定要努力读书...
一定可以的!!!
很早就睡了,so没有update我的blog...
昨天带camera去学校...
拍了好多照片...
而且效果非常满意...
好开心...
刚开始还担心会冷场...
但大家越拍就越high...
在学校的日子真的很好...
去年的SPM的考生回去学校领成绩...
站在礼堂里看到好多种表情...
不管是好坏...
只要有付出,一切都是值得的...
他们的回来给我是种推动力...
让我觉得已经不早了...
是时候开始读书了...
考得好成绩不是为了要show off什么...
只是觉得对自己的要求...
要做就要做到最好...
但如果成绩不能如我所愿...
也要接受....
哭也改变不了结局...
只要我有努力付出一切都是值得的...
mummy问我真的要一个人去KL读书?不怕?
我想也没想说我不怕,真的很想去...
也许从小就没有姐妹,只有brother...
再加上17年以来发生的点点滴滴...
让我学会了可以独自一个人适应不一样的环境...
但这个性格有好也有坏...
坏的是变成不喜欢别人follow我的decision....
一直在努力改变这个坏想法...
想起...
去年一个人和其他从不一样学校的学生到sabah参加PRS Camp后....
我学会了怎样独自面对问题和想办法解决....
在airport时知道我是penang代表唯一的华人...
当时傻了...
很想回家...
但我还是决定去...
还记得第一天时很陌生,心情很乱....
所以就打电话给叶老师报平安...
那一通电话让我很感动....
由于当时身旁没有亲人...
所以老师短短的关心让我冷静和感动...
过后自己一个人冷静想了几个小时...
觉得这样下去不是办法,还有4天要过...
到了晚上和大家都开始混成一团了...
过后就和大家混得越来越熟了...
甚至很不想回去...
当时第一次体会到Satu Malaysia的感觉....
和不同种族的人在一起...
感觉是不一样的...
留下很多回忆...
很认识了一班好朋友..
突然好想念他们...
好久没见到他们了...
从面对语言障碍的第一天....
至到最后一天...
有人告诉我讲话的语气很像本土人...
我成功了...
我终于做到了....
所以我有信心,不再害怕...
也许开始会面对问题....
但我相信我可以克服...
mummy,我真的很想去那间college读书...
我对我自己有信心....
原本已经计划好假期要读书的...
但假期很忙...
一直要往学校跑,还过夜呢.....
但还是会依照我的读书计划...
只是没办法每天进行...
为了我的将来...
我一定要努力读书...
一定可以的!!!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
感恩...
虽然今天上华语节很闷,想睡觉...
但也学到了东西...
"懂得感恩的人比较快乐"
非常赞同这句话...
我对于"感恩"这两个字比较敏感...
我第一时间就想到你...
过后想了好久...
或许你不值得让我感恩...
你已经hurt我了，还要我向你感恩吗？？
我对父母的感恩才是最应该的．．．
父母辛苦把我养大．．．
虽然有时不赞成他们的想法．．．
但他们做的每一个决定都以我为重．．．
在家里的大小姐脾气老是向他们发脾气．．．
过后又感到后悔．．．
可是又不善于向他们表达．．．
其实每一次我都有反省．．．
曾经有人告诉我活在幸福的家庭里．．．
当时我并不这么认为．．．
但现在我承认我真的活在福中不知福．．．
有爱真的会很开心．．．
而家人对我们的爱是不会让我们受伤害．．．
爱情的爱虽然可以让我们很享受，开心．．．
但往往是对我们最大的伤害．．．
曾经因为你而把家人给忘了．．．
但从你离开我的那一刻开始．．．
我觉得家人对我越来越重要了．．．
谢谢你的离开让我更懂得珍惜他们．．．
今天在学校像往常一样和她聊天．．．
但感觉不一样了．．．
我和她之间好像隔了一道墙．．．
无法再像以前了．．．
她越来越让我看到她邪恶的一面．．．
我真不希望会这样．．．
我想保持我和她之间的友情．．．
毕竟已经快要毕业了，也最后一年了．．．
所以就ignore她无礼的行为．．．
就可以天下太平了吧．．．
太夸张了啦．．．
haha...^^
但也学到了东西...
"懂得感恩的人比较快乐"
非常赞同这句话...
我对于"感恩"这两个字比较敏感...
我第一时间就想到你...
过后想了好久...
或许你不值得让我感恩...
你已经hurt我了，还要我向你感恩吗？？
我对父母的感恩才是最应该的．．．
父母辛苦把我养大．．．
虽然有时不赞成他们的想法．．．
但他们做的每一个决定都以我为重．．．
在家里的大小姐脾气老是向他们发脾气．．．
过后又感到后悔．．．
可是又不善于向他们表达．．．
其实每一次我都有反省．．．
曾经有人告诉我活在幸福的家庭里．．．
当时我并不这么认为．．．
但现在我承认我真的活在福中不知福．．．
有爱真的会很开心．．．
而家人对我们的爱是不会让我们受伤害．．．
爱情的爱虽然可以让我们很享受，开心．．．
但往往是对我们最大的伤害．．．
曾经因为你而把家人给忘了．．．
但从你离开我的那一刻开始．．．
我觉得家人对我越来越重要了．．．
谢谢你的离开让我更懂得珍惜他们．．．
今天在学校像往常一样和她聊天．．．
但感觉不一样了．．．
我和她之间好像隔了一道墙．．．
无法再像以前了．．．
她越来越让我看到她邪恶的一面．．．
我真不希望会这样．．．
我想保持我和她之间的友情．．．
毕竟已经快要毕业了，也最后一年了．．．
所以就ignore她无礼的行为．．．
就可以天下太平了吧．．．
太夸张了啦．．．
haha...^^
Monday, March 8, 2010
dream...
昨晚你出现在我的梦中...
不知是好是坏....
也许不可能发生...
梦到你回来找我,挽回一切...
但是另有目的...
在梦中我拒绝了你...
很不想醒过来...
我相信在真实的生活里你不是这种人....
而且很肯定你不会做出这样的选择...
因为这个梦....
今天还在blur blur的状态....
让我回想了很多我和你的点点滴滴...
本来已经成功踏出第一步...
不再想起我们之间的回忆....
但这场梦又让我回到原点...
最近感觉到你心事重重...
好想关心你...
但我没这么做...
我不想再让你认为我心里还有你...
不想让你知道我还care你...
默默就够了...
希望你的问题可以尽快解决...
恢复你那开朗的性格...
只想看到你开心...
我也会开心...
J,加油吧!!!
不知是好是坏....
也许不可能发生...
梦到你回来找我,挽回一切...
但是另有目的...
在梦中我拒绝了你...
很不想醒过来...
我相信在真实的生活里你不是这种人....
而且很肯定你不会做出这样的选择...
因为这个梦....
今天还在blur blur的状态....
让我回想了很多我和你的点点滴滴...
本来已经成功踏出第一步...
不再想起我们之间的回忆....
但这场梦又让我回到原点...
最近感觉到你心事重重...
好想关心你...
但我没这么做...
我不想再让你认为我心里还有你...
不想让你知道我还care你...
默默就够了...
希望你的问题可以尽快解决...
恢复你那开朗的性格...
只想看到你开心...
我也会开心...
J,加油吧!!!
friend....
从学校回来后,
很想快点毕业....
在学校发生了不如意的事情...
我把她当好朋友看待....
却不知道她有这么想吗?
我选择不想知道....
曾经认为她会真心把我当好朋友...
我错了....
或许她曾经有这样过....
她不喜欢双面人...
我告诉过她每一个人都有双面的性格....
知道她要在我和M之间做人是左右为难...
但我从来没要求她做出任何选择...
觉得在她需要我时才会找我....
在M的面前,她对我态度72变...
每次M有在场时我都不喜欢找她...
她会对我没礼貌,让我厌恶...
已经不是第一次了...
我每次都容忍她...
或许她没感觉到我的厌恶
我不喜欢在班时要牺牲我座位让她和M聊天....
每次都要到处找座位....
厚脸皮告诉别人借坐一下下....
我不喜欢这样...
她的行为已经告诉我她选择和M的友情...
今天我已经不能再忍她....
在她的面前发脾气了....
以后也许我只会把她当朋友看待...
我曾经很生气她至到不想珍惜我和她的友情...
但只是我一是的心情,我没有必要这么做....
顺其自然吧!!
看到theng在FB的状况了....
虽然不知道他发生了什么事情...
但感觉到他很不开心...
想告诉他时间过了一段日子就没事了...
要开心...
自己的伤心会让家人觉得更伤心
知道自己也不怎么好...
根本没资格安慰他...
只希望他开心....
今天的心情非常糟...
我哭了....
觉得很辛苦...
无法再continue...
tired....
很想快点毕业....
在学校发生了不如意的事情...
我把她当好朋友看待....
却不知道她有这么想吗?
我选择不想知道....
曾经认为她会真心把我当好朋友...
我错了....
或许她曾经有这样过....
她不喜欢双面人...
我告诉过她每一个人都有双面的性格....
知道她要在我和M之间做人是左右为难...
但我从来没要求她做出任何选择...
觉得在她需要我时才会找我....
在M的面前,她对我态度72变...
每次M有在场时我都不喜欢找她...
她会对我没礼貌,让我厌恶...
已经不是第一次了...
我每次都容忍她...
或许她没感觉到我的厌恶
我不喜欢在班时要牺牲我座位让她和M聊天....
每次都要到处找座位....
厚脸皮告诉别人借坐一下下....
我不喜欢这样...
她的行为已经告诉我她选择和M的友情...
今天我已经不能再忍她....
在她的面前发脾气了....
以后也许我只会把她当朋友看待...
我曾经很生气她至到不想珍惜我和她的友情...
但只是我一是的心情,我没有必要这么做....
顺其自然吧!!
看到theng在FB的状况了....
虽然不知道他发生了什么事情...
但感觉到他很不开心...
想告诉他时间过了一段日子就没事了...
要开心...
自己的伤心会让家人觉得更伤心
知道自己也不怎么好...
根本没资格安慰他...
只希望他开心....
今天的心情非常糟...
我哭了....
觉得很辛苦...
无法再continue...
tired....
Sunday, March 7, 2010
very happy!!!!
just come back from star education fair....
拿了大包小包回来...
好像去shopping...
可是里面装着的全都是paper...
非常开心....
感觉daddy n mummy越来越了解我的选择...
从他们的对话中,感觉他们赞成我的选择了....
还说会带我到KL参观那间college....
感觉我的梦想离我越来越近了...
只是KL的生活费有点高....
但他们告诉我可以解决...
好开心哦....
我一定要努力读书...
不管再怎样辛苦...
我也一定要拼到底....
希望明年新年时的我会是一位全新的sally choo...
以前曾近告诉过你我的梦想...
但你告诉我等到我毕业后一切都会不一样了....
我想告诉你,我和你不一样....
这是我的梦想....
我一定会坚持不放弃....
我不会像你一样不确定自己的选择....
以后的日子我一定要过得比你更好....
之前用英文写blog...
是因为压抑太久了...
用自己的华人语言写blog...
感觉没那么爽快...
所以前天用英文终于发泄自己的心情...
爽快多了...
另外一个原因是特地写给你看的...
是故意要让看懂...
不管你看了后感觉如何...
只想让知道...
我是傻了吧!!!
做出这么冲动的行为...
但没关系了...
不要让自己有机会regret...
拿了大包小包回来...
好像去shopping...
可是里面装着的全都是paper...
非常开心....
感觉daddy n mummy越来越了解我的选择...
从他们的对话中,感觉他们赞成我的选择了....
还说会带我到KL参观那间college....
感觉我的梦想离我越来越近了...
只是KL的生活费有点高....
但他们告诉我可以解决...
好开心哦....
我一定要努力读书...
不管再怎样辛苦...
我也一定要拼到底....
希望明年新年时的我会是一位全新的sally choo...
以前曾近告诉过你我的梦想...
但你告诉我等到我毕业后一切都会不一样了....
我想告诉你,我和你不一样....
这是我的梦想....
我一定会坚持不放弃....
我不会像你一样不确定自己的选择....
以后的日子我一定要过得比你更好....
之前用英文写blog...
是因为压抑太久了...
用自己的华人语言写blog...
感觉没那么爽快...
所以前天用英文终于发泄自己的心情...
爽快多了...
另外一个原因是特地写给你看的...
是故意要让看懂...
不管你看了后感觉如何...
只想让知道...
我是傻了吧!!!
做出这么冲动的行为...
但没关系了...
不要让自己有机会regret...
Friday, March 5, 2010
feeling....
just nw viewed joshin's blog...
i very understand her feeling....
because i also have such feeling....
everyday need to act happy go school n face other ppl....
very tired n suffer....
this few month,my friends always feel sad include me....
because of love n the bad guys....
friends,be happy,we sure can do it....
do u all knw everyday wear"mask"go school very suffer???
i want happy life....
bt y i still cannot forget u....
pls go away from my mind....
more far more good....
i hate Sally Choo BZ....
y she so love u??
i knw impossible i will hate u...
during exam also always think about u....
hard to concentrate....
bt just awhile...
after that every thing ok le....
how do i live without u....
is a song....
very nice bt nt suit for me....
because i can live without u...
u made me so confuse....
i dont understand why....
i want knw so many why....
can u just tell me....
may be for u no more important....
bt u dont knw very important for me....
i dint feel happy ....
because i dont knw all 'why'....
n i want knw about it....
my friend advise me better dont knw....
bt i still want to knw...
when i dont knw,i wll feel sad...
when i knw,i will feel more comfortable....
at least let me understand what is going on....
dont make me blur...
haiz....
i very understand her feeling....
because i also have such feeling....
everyday need to act happy go school n face other ppl....
very tired n suffer....
this few month,my friends always feel sad include me....
because of love n the bad guys....
friends,be happy,we sure can do it....
do u all knw everyday wear"mask"go school very suffer???
i want happy life....
bt y i still cannot forget u....
pls go away from my mind....
more far more good....
i hate Sally Choo BZ....
y she so love u??
i knw impossible i will hate u...
during exam also always think about u....
hard to concentrate....
bt just awhile...
after that every thing ok le....
how do i live without u....
is a song....
very nice bt nt suit for me....
because i can live without u...
u made me so confuse....
i dont understand why....
i want knw so many why....
can u just tell me....
may be for u no more important....
bt u dont knw very important for me....
i dint feel happy ....
because i dont knw all 'why'....
n i want knw about it....
my friend advise me better dont knw....
bt i still want to knw...
when i dont knw,i wll feel sad...
when i knw,i will feel more comfortable....
at least let me understand what is going on....
dont make me blur...
haiz....
死"蚊子"
考试完了....
以为会很开心....
但没像想象中那么开心,
只觉得ok罢了....
也知道有些成绩了...
都以平常心面对,不去和别人比较....
人比人只会气死人....
这两天应该感到轻松...
可是心里闷闷不乐...
你又打扰我了....
好希望你是只蚊子,两巴掌把你打死....
永远离开我的脑海里....
或许没遇见你,我就不受伤害...
但我还是无智的小女孩....
是你让我学会很多东西,
也让我懂了很多道理....
不知是好是坏...
你hurt了人,难到你不会觉得一点难过或不好意思吗?
我感觉不到你的难过....
你让我感觉你很开心....
也许是你不爱把心事讲出来的性格让我有这样的想法....
还是可以因为你的伤心让自己伤心....
以前从来都不会这样...
遇见你后一切改变了....
想当会原来开开心心的我,
但要保存着想在我会想的头脑....
this sunday将会和家人去stars education fair...
去年时我们曾经在那边相约,但都找不到对方....
希望今年在场时不会想到你....
我一定可以做到...
希望回来后,daddy & mummy可以多了解....
而赞同我的选择....
我真的很希望我可以实现我的选择....
我想过了,就算家人不赞成,
我还是会坚持我的选择....
我不会轻易放弃,
也不会因为你们的一句话而放弃....
最近爱上吃wasabi绿豆....
很喜欢一次吃多多粒,
虽然和刺鼻,但那种感觉好爽快....
一天可以连续吃3-4包...
好担心痘痘会长很多...
我不要我的脸"花"了....
但还是忍不住每天至少会吃一包....
hehe......^^
以为会很开心....
但没像想象中那么开心,
只觉得ok罢了....
也知道有些成绩了...
都以平常心面对,不去和别人比较....
人比人只会气死人....
这两天应该感到轻松...
可是心里闷闷不乐...
你又打扰我了....
好希望你是只蚊子,两巴掌把你打死....
永远离开我的脑海里....
或许没遇见你,我就不受伤害...
但我还是无智的小女孩....
是你让我学会很多东西,
也让我懂了很多道理....
不知是好是坏...
你hurt了人,难到你不会觉得一点难过或不好意思吗?
我感觉不到你的难过....
你让我感觉你很开心....
也许是你不爱把心事讲出来的性格让我有这样的想法....
还是可以因为你的伤心让自己伤心....
以前从来都不会这样...
遇见你后一切改变了....
想当会原来开开心心的我,
但要保存着想在我会想的头脑....
this sunday将会和家人去stars education fair...
去年时我们曾经在那边相约,但都找不到对方....
希望今年在场时不会想到你....
我一定可以做到...
希望回来后,daddy & mummy可以多了解....
而赞同我的选择....
我真的很希望我可以实现我的选择....
我想过了,就算家人不赞成,
我还是会坚持我的选择....
我不会轻易放弃,
也不会因为你们的一句话而放弃....
最近爱上吃wasabi绿豆....
很喜欢一次吃多多粒,
虽然和刺鼻,但那种感觉好爽快....
一天可以连续吃3-4包...
好担心痘痘会长很多...
我不要我的脸"花"了....
但还是忍不住每天至少会吃一包....
hehe......^^
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
bo lang ai
今天我快崩溃了.....
每一张paper都要求自己做到last minute
是为了避免自己在考试其间想到你....
今天考moral时还剩10minutes....
就坐着发呆....
又想到你....
当时真的很想哭....
明天是最后一天考试了...
只要现在我掉下一滴眼泪,
明天我的考试心情就会被影响....
所以我坚持不哭....
刚才补习时躺在yent的肩膀时,
我无法回答她发生什么事...
当时只想哭....
alex在我和你合照的照片留comment...
写着future family pic....
多好,但只是梦....
不再可能发生了....
心想要是给你看到了,
也许你会忙着解释清楚...
以前你向全世界交代你是single了...
当时生气又伤心,也觉得你很幼稚....
毕竟这是两个人的事,
没有必要向全世界交代....
但算了吧!!!
看到你总是在fb告诉别人你"bo lang ai".....
我好想告诉你不要人家了,
你还可以写你没有人要...
你还是人吗?
你不一样很多了....
这是真实的你?
还是你变了?
但都不重要了....
或许现在你过得比我更好....
但在未来我一定要过得比你更好...
我累了....
因为你,我的身心都好累....
我还可以挣得住吗???
每一张paper都要求自己做到last minute
是为了避免自己在考试其间想到你....
今天考moral时还剩10minutes....
就坐着发呆....
又想到你....
当时真的很想哭....
明天是最后一天考试了...
只要现在我掉下一滴眼泪,
明天我的考试心情就会被影响....
所以我坚持不哭....
刚才补习时躺在yent的肩膀时,
我无法回答她发生什么事...
当时只想哭....
alex在我和你合照的照片留comment...
写着future family pic....
多好,但只是梦....
不再可能发生了....
心想要是给你看到了,
也许你会忙着解释清楚...
以前你向全世界交代你是single了...
当时生气又伤心,也觉得你很幼稚....
毕竟这是两个人的事,
没有必要向全世界交代....
但算了吧!!!
看到你总是在fb告诉别人你"bo lang ai".....
我好想告诉你不要人家了,
你还可以写你没有人要...
你还是人吗?
你不一样很多了....
这是真实的你?
还是你变了?
但都不重要了....
或许现在你过得比我更好....
但在未来我一定要过得比你更好...
我累了....
因为你,我的身心都好累....
我还可以挣得住吗???
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
不懂!!!
这几天都忙着准备考试...
好几天没睡好...
也没空updates我的blog...
星期六和Jie En讲了一个小时的电话...
我是傻了吧!!!
已经不够时见读书了...
但我没有后悔浪费那一小时...
我轻松多了...
因为她的耐心听我诉苦....
让我的心情静下来,专心读书...
谢谢她让我哭了...
压抑好久了...
原本今晚的同学会延迟了...
所以到QB走走...
也花了好几小时在QB....
放松自己,回家后才读书了....
28/2去了一趟pre-u education fair...
也有一点小收获....
不怎么感兴趣...
因为不是我想要选择的路...
我比较期待this sunday的star education fair...
比较适合我的梦想....
也和朋友拍了几张照片...
我是怎么了....
考试其间偶尔还是会想到你....
但都没影响我的考试心情...
你给我不懂让我时常想起你...
折磨我好久了...
几时你才能让我知道这些不懂...
我想要开开心心过生活....
但这些不懂困扰我好久了...
我讨厌自己对你的感觉很深...
我讨厌这样的我....
要把我对你的感觉给忘了是件很难的事...
好几天没睡好...
也没空updates我的blog...
星期六和Jie En讲了一个小时的电话...
我是傻了吧!!!
已经不够时见读书了...
但我没有后悔浪费那一小时...
我轻松多了...
因为她的耐心听我诉苦....
让我的心情静下来,专心读书...
谢谢她让我哭了...
压抑好久了...
原本今晚的同学会延迟了...
所以到QB走走...
也花了好几小时在QB....
放松自己,回家后才读书了....
28/2去了一趟pre-u education fair...
也有一点小收获....
不怎么感兴趣...
因为不是我想要选择的路...
我比较期待this sunday的star education fair...
比较适合我的梦想....
也和朋友拍了几张照片...
我是怎么了....
考试其间偶尔还是会想到你....
但都没影响我的考试心情...
你给我不懂让我时常想起你...
折磨我好久了...
几时你才能让我知道这些不懂...
我想要开开心心过生活....
但这些不懂困扰我好久了...
我讨厌自己对你的感觉很深...
我讨厌这样的我....
要把我对你的感觉给忘了是件很难的事...
Saturday, February 27, 2010
忘不了....
从学校回来后,心情非常糟...
看到你来学校...
但是还以为在幻想....
身边的朋友都没有看到你的身影...
但我很确定我不是在幻想...
我真的看到你...
也许珍说的对...
对我而言你还是像一道光...
所以我才能注意到你...
当时好想走过去和你打招呼...
很久没和你聊天了...
但我有责任在身,无法离开...
我也没选择把责任放一旁而走过去找你...
我这次做对了...
但之后我的心就不知飞到哪里了...
在回家的路程,
你一直徘徊在我的脑海里...
我也不知道在想你什么...
很blur,现在也很blur....
原来你在我心的地位还是和家人一样...
没有改变过...
我还是可以因为你而影响我一整天的情绪...
但我看到你时,我是有点高兴...
enough!!!!
不可以再想你了...
专心读书吧...
要考试了...
haiz....
看到你来学校...
但是还以为在幻想....
身边的朋友都没有看到你的身影...
但我很确定我不是在幻想...
我真的看到你...
也许珍说的对...
对我而言你还是像一道光...
所以我才能注意到你...
当时好想走过去和你打招呼...
很久没和你聊天了...
但我有责任在身,无法离开...
我也没选择把责任放一旁而走过去找你...
我这次做对了...
但之后我的心就不知飞到哪里了...
在回家的路程,
你一直徘徊在我的脑海里...
我也不知道在想你什么...
很blur,现在也很blur....
原来你在我心的地位还是和家人一样...
没有改变过...
我还是可以因为你而影响我一整天的情绪...
但我看到你时,我是有点高兴...
enough!!!!
不可以再想你了...
专心读书吧...
要考试了...
haiz....
Friday, February 26, 2010
loser...
看回照片时,
不满意现在的发型哦...
虽然没什么改变,只是短了...
但还是有点后悔...
算了吧..
头发是可以长回...
耐心等吧...
考试好痛苦哦...
最近好像烧坏脑了...
以前读sejarah时还蛮轻松...
今天感觉好辛苦...
很难记进脑...
救命!!!
昨晚的夜车发生了点小意外...
希望今晚的夜车可以顺利成功...
读到这么辛苦,
并不是为了和别人竞争...
只是想要考好成绩...
看到有进步,就心满意足了...
作弊只是要赢过别人...
即使考到再好的成绩也没有用...
更本不知道自己的实力...
作弊考到的好成绩虽然赢了大家...
但实际上作弊的人才是真正的loser...
所以劝大家还是把这坏习惯改了...
至少还可以保住自己的尊严...
不满意现在的发型哦...
虽然没什么改变,只是短了...
但还是有点后悔...
算了吧..
头发是可以长回...
耐心等吧...
考试好痛苦哦...
最近好像烧坏脑了...
以前读sejarah时还蛮轻松...
今天感觉好辛苦...
很难记进脑...
救命!!!
昨晚的夜车发生了点小意外...
希望今晚的夜车可以顺利成功...
读到这么辛苦,
并不是为了和别人竞争...
只是想要考好成绩...
看到有进步,就心满意足了...
作弊只是要赢过别人...
即使考到再好的成绩也没有用...
更本不知道自己的实力...
作弊考到的好成绩虽然赢了大家...
但实际上作弊的人才是真正的loser...
所以劝大家还是把这坏习惯改了...
至少还可以保住自己的尊严...
Thursday, February 25, 2010
加油！！！
终于考完华文了...
松了一口气...
还要痛苦一个星期...
之前还很开心过新年...
现在才紧张...
太迟了...
不够时间...
所以今晚要开夜车了...
希望我的夜车不会发生任何意外....
可是现在眼皮好累哦...
考试完后又有东西要忙了...
相信我还可以应付得来吧!!
曾经想要gives up这次的考试．．．
但还是做不到．．．
就算多辛苦也会尽力拼下去．．．
学业对我实在太重要．．．
没有学业，在将来也不会好到哪里去罢了．．．
虽然平时一副不是很在乎学业，爱玩的样子．．．
其实对自己的学业，成绩都都有蛮高的要求．．．
虽然家人对我要求不高．．．．
但总觉得要做就做最好的．．．
去年的年终考前发生了不愉快的事情．．．．
那个考试是非常重要．．．
不愉快的事让我迟了几个星期开始准备．．．
也一直让我无法专心．．．
但怎样还是撑到底．．．
当时对自己说已经被你hurt到无法专注了，
所以再也不可以因为你而影响自己的学业．．．
准备功夫做不足．．．
以为一定糟了．．．
没想到成绩果然出乎意料．．．
进步了很多．．．
很开心哦．．．
因为我做到了．．．
总算我的怒力是没有白费的．．．
希望这次的考试也是如此．．．．
加油！！！
松了一口气...
还要痛苦一个星期...
之前还很开心过新年...
现在才紧张...
太迟了...
不够时间...
所以今晚要开夜车了...
希望我的夜车不会发生任何意外....
可是现在眼皮好累哦...
考试完后又有东西要忙了...
相信我还可以应付得来吧!!
曾经想要gives up这次的考试．．．
但还是做不到．．．
就算多辛苦也会尽力拼下去．．．
学业对我实在太重要．．．
没有学业，在将来也不会好到哪里去罢了．．．
虽然平时一副不是很在乎学业，爱玩的样子．．．
其实对自己的学业，成绩都都有蛮高的要求．．．
虽然家人对我要求不高．．．．
但总觉得要做就做最好的．．．
去年的年终考前发生了不愉快的事情．．．．
那个考试是非常重要．．．
不愉快的事让我迟了几个星期开始准备．．．
也一直让我无法专心．．．
但怎样还是撑到底．．．
当时对自己说已经被你hurt到无法专注了，
所以再也不可以因为你而影响自己的学业．．．
准备功夫做不足．．．
以为一定糟了．．．
没想到成绩果然出乎意料．．．
进步了很多．．．
很开心哦．．．
因为我做到了．．．
总算我的怒力是没有白费的．．．
希望这次的考试也是如此．．．．
加油！！！
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
how do i live without you....
how do i live without u....
曾经有这样想法...
现在不再这么想了....
是好事吧!哈哈....^^
现在的年龄,
就算没有了love也可以活得很开心...
在fb看到一切了...
感觉到你不开心...
会有想要跟你聊聊的冲动...
但我不会这么做...
更何况明天是考试...
找你聊天只会影响我的考试心情...
明天只会心不在焉....
所以只能在这里希望你开心....
别做让你有生命危险的事吧!!
今天没去学校...
但还是一样很早就起床了...
起来读书...
至少有床可以休息...
才没这么累...
明天考试了...
还没准备好...
但还有时间在这里写blog....
也许接下的几天都不会online
专心读书....
过了几天就轻松了...
加油!!!
曾经有这样想法...
现在不再这么想了....
是好事吧!哈哈....^^
现在的年龄,
就算没有了love也可以活得很开心...
在fb看到一切了...
感觉到你不开心...
会有想要跟你聊聊的冲动...
但我不会这么做...
更何况明天是考试...
找你聊天只会影响我的考试心情...
明天只会心不在焉....
所以只能在这里希望你开心....
别做让你有生命危险的事吧!!
今天没去学校...
但还是一样很早就起床了...
起来读书...
至少有床可以休息...
才没这么累...
明天考试了...
还没准备好...
但还有时间在这里写blog....
也许接下的几天都不会online
专心读书....
过了几天就轻松了...
加油!!!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
thank you
今天醒来后,就非常不想去学校....
还在blur blur的状态...
结果还是去了...
到学校就后悔了...
不如意的事情连连发生...
顶不顺了,打个电话给妈妈...
过不久就和妈妈回家了...
回家的路程感觉好远哦...
一直想到你...
好想要得到你的关心...
想太多了吧!
去年的某一天我胃痛得很严重...
从来都没有胃痛的习惯...
虽然你已经毕业了...
但你买了胃痛药拿去学校给我...
我又再次感动...
当是认为要好好珍惜你...
记得我们还没在一起的前几天,
当是你还没毕业...
我也是生病了...
虽然你没买药给我,因为你不是医生...
但你切apple给我吃,
让我比较舒服...
那是你第一次让我感动...
我们的第一次约会,
我一辈子也忘不了...
那天我的鞋不听话...
我的脚受伤了...
我以为你只是帮我买plaster就算了...
我万万没想到你会帮我粘....
很少男生是愿意这么做...
我当时真的好幸福....
谢谢你曾经给我这一些...
相信以后我也会遇到像你一样体贴的好男人...
累了...
从1pm睡到4pm...
猪啊!!
还发美梦呢!!
真不想醒过来...
希望可以美梦成真....
梦到梦中情人哦...
但看不清楚样子...
哈哈哈...
觉得老师说的话很有意义...
每一个人都可以做到...
我也可以...
只要往positive的方面想...
对自己有信心,相信自己可以...
我知道我可以慢慢把你离开我的心....
如果有一天有机会出书...
我会勇敢把们的点点滴滴写出一本书...
还在blur blur的状态...
结果还是去了...
到学校就后悔了...
不如意的事情连连发生...
顶不顺了,打个电话给妈妈...
过不久就和妈妈回家了...
回家的路程感觉好远哦...
一直想到你...
好想要得到你的关心...
想太多了吧!
去年的某一天我胃痛得很严重...
从来都没有胃痛的习惯...
虽然你已经毕业了...
但你买了胃痛药拿去学校给我...
我又再次感动...
当是认为要好好珍惜你...
记得我们还没在一起的前几天,
当是你还没毕业...
我也是生病了...
虽然你没买药给我,因为你不是医生...
但你切apple给我吃,
让我比较舒服...
那是你第一次让我感动...
我们的第一次约会,
我一辈子也忘不了...
那天我的鞋不听话...
我的脚受伤了...
我以为你只是帮我买plaster就算了...
我万万没想到你会帮我粘....
很少男生是愿意这么做...
我当时真的好幸福....
谢谢你曾经给我这一些...
相信以后我也会遇到像你一样体贴的好男人...
累了...
从1pm睡到4pm...
猪啊!!
还发美梦呢!!
真不想醒过来...
希望可以美梦成真....
梦到梦中情人哦...
但看不清楚样子...
哈哈哈...
觉得老师说的话很有意义...
每一个人都可以做到...
我也可以...
只要往positive的方面想...
对自己有信心,相信自己可以...
我知道我可以慢慢把你离开我的心....
如果有一天有机会出书...
我会勇敢把们的点点滴滴写出一本书...
Monday, February 22, 2010
我会好过点....
今晚开始补习了....
很累,一直想睡觉...
也许休息太久了....
所以逼自己专心听课...
听着,听着....怎么会听到你的声音....
我是疯了吗?
都只是幻觉...
要是真的听到你的声音有多好...
至少可以安慰我....
crazy...
和你在一起后,
看着身旁的朋友慢慢有伴侣...
有多好...
失去你后,
也看见身边的朋友慢慢一个个的从in a relationship变single....
看见这么多事发生...
我多多少少应该可以领悟到吧...
爱一个人时,可以爱到要生要死...
不爱了,就扫扫屁股一走了之...
你是这种人吗?
我相信你不是...
我坚持相信你是好男生....
我的blog不是要让你知道我的痛苦...
我只想把我的心情写出来...
别误会...
讲出来,不如写出来...
我会好过点...
很累,一直想睡觉...
也许休息太久了....
所以逼自己专心听课...
听着,听着....怎么会听到你的声音....
我是疯了吗?
都只是幻觉...
要是真的听到你的声音有多好...
至少可以安慰我....
crazy...
和你在一起后,
看着身旁的朋友慢慢有伴侣...
有多好...
失去你后,
也看见身边的朋友慢慢一个个的从in a relationship变single....
看见这么多事发生...
我多多少少应该可以领悟到吧...
爱一个人时,可以爱到要生要死...
不爱了,就扫扫屁股一走了之...
你是这种人吗?
我相信你不是...
我坚持相信你是好男生....
我的blog不是要让你知道我的痛苦...
我只想把我的心情写出来...
别误会...
讲出来,不如写出来...
我会好过点...
be happy....
到最后还是决定去ah ban的birthday party....
毕竟朋友一场....
也好久没遇到大家了...
大家也蛮开心...
为了不要破坏气氛,
也忍住自己的情绪配合大家...
感觉刚才好像做错了...
不是有意要用无理的表情对待其中几个人...
只是最近不怎么爱讲话,不爱笑...
如果刚才我的行为让你们感到不舒服...
我向你们说声sorry...
在我失落后,有朋友的陪伴...
所以曾经感觉很幸福有一班好朋友在身旁....
以前很喜欢和朋友娶在一起欢乐...
但经过这几天和朋友出去后....
不再有那种感觉了....
再也没有玩到疯疯癫癫了....
以前很怕被冷落...
不喜欢孤单...
现在反而喜欢一个人独自坐在角落...
享受自己的世界....
但还是会好好珍惜有一班好朋友....
虽然你离开我的生活了....
但你从来都离开过我的头脑,心和视线....
几时你才能完完全全的离开我呢?
我从来都没有后悔当初选择你...
如还有重来的那么一天,我还是会选你
但一切都不可能了....
不会重来了...
是为了保护自己不再受伤害...
我相信在未来就算没有你....
我依然会过得很好...
也许过得比你好...
我可以!!!
be happy.....
毕竟朋友一场....
也好久没遇到大家了...
大家也蛮开心...
为了不要破坏气氛,
也忍住自己的情绪配合大家...
感觉刚才好像做错了...
不是有意要用无理的表情对待其中几个人...
只是最近不怎么爱讲话,不爱笑...
如果刚才我的行为让你们感到不舒服...
我向你们说声sorry...
在我失落后,有朋友的陪伴...
所以曾经感觉很幸福有一班好朋友在身旁....
以前很喜欢和朋友娶在一起欢乐...
但经过这几天和朋友出去后....
不再有那种感觉了....
再也没有玩到疯疯癫癫了....
以前很怕被冷落...
不喜欢孤单...
现在反而喜欢一个人独自坐在角落...
享受自己的世界....
但还是会好好珍惜有一班好朋友....
虽然你离开我的生活了....
但你从来都离开过我的头脑,心和视线....
几时你才能完完全全的离开我呢?
我从来都没有后悔当初选择你...
如还有重来的那么一天,我还是会选你
但一切都不可能了....
不会重来了...
是为了保护自己不再受伤害...
我相信在未来就算没有你....
我依然会过得很好...
也许过得比你好...
我可以!!!
be happy.....
Sunday, February 21, 2010
crazy....
刚才和家人去sushi king享用晚餐....
最近心情变了...
胃口也变小了...
才吃几盘就饱了...
看着自己爱吃的sushi也变得没胃口...
到底我是怎么了...
伤脑筋....
吃完后到处走走...
一个人在auto city的后街走走....
那时觉得很舒服,没有烦恼...
完全忘了安全问题...
越来越喜欢一个人....
有朋友在身边的确很开心...
但最近爱上独自一个人...
回来后接到chin hooi的电话...
问我明天要不要去ah ban的birthday party...
我回答他不确定....
其实我想告诉你...
累了,不想出去...
我不是不愿意和你们出去...
只是最近的心情很糟...
变得不怎么爱出门...
抱歉,ban....
也祝ban生日快乐...
也快要考试了,但还没读书...
前几天打算明天读书...
所以明天也许会留在家里读书吧....
最近心情变了...
胃口也变小了...
才吃几盘就饱了...
看着自己爱吃的sushi也变得没胃口...
到底我是怎么了...
伤脑筋....
吃完后到处走走...
一个人在auto city的后街走走....
那时觉得很舒服,没有烦恼...
完全忘了安全问题...
越来越喜欢一个人....
有朋友在身边的确很开心...
但最近爱上独自一个人...
回来后接到chin hooi的电话...
问我明天要不要去ah ban的birthday party...
我回答他不确定....
其实我想告诉你...
累了,不想出去...
我不是不愿意和你们出去...
只是最近的心情很糟...
变得不怎么爱出门...
抱歉,ban....
也祝ban生日快乐...
也快要考试了,但还没读书...
前几天打算明天读书...
所以明天也许会留在家里读书吧....
haiz....
刚刚和朋友去sunway看"大兵小将"
很搞笑,蛮不错....
总算没有白看....
笑一笑两个小时就过了....
之后就去老师家拜年....
发现大家都长大了那么一点...
看见朋友毕业了,好羡慕哦....
希望自己的那么一天也快点到来...
以为回来后心情会好点...
但没有改变...
算了吧!!
就快要崩溃了....
好怕自己有一天失去理智去做不该做的行为...
也许应该把你当坏人
这样才能好好对待自己...
但我做不到...
把你当坏人了,我就会开心吗?
有必要这样吗?
这一切都好难忘...
选择把一切都当回忆...
并不想要把一切都忘了...
很傻吧???
这个回忆时常提醒我以后要好好选伴侣....
现在的情况很blur....
haiz....
很搞笑,蛮不错....
总算没有白看....
笑一笑两个小时就过了....
之后就去老师家拜年....
发现大家都长大了那么一点...
看见朋友毕业了,好羡慕哦....
希望自己的那么一天也快点到来...
以为回来后心情会好点...
但没有改变...
算了吧!!
就快要崩溃了....
好怕自己有一天失去理智去做不该做的行为...
也许应该把你当坏人
这样才能好好对待自己...
但我做不到...
把你当坏人了,我就会开心吗?
有必要这样吗?
这一切都好难忘...
选择把一切都当回忆...
并不想要把一切都忘了...
很傻吧???
这个回忆时常提醒我以后要好好选伴侣....
现在的情况很blur....
haiz....
Saturday, February 20, 2010
alone...
有时候独自一个人的感觉很好....
刚才一个人背着包包,穿着凉鞋一个人走在街上....
感觉很好,很舒服....
暂时把所有的烦恼和不开心都放在一旁了....
越来越喜欢一个人的感觉了....
但回到现实的生活时,
还是要面对所有的痛苦...
以前那疯疯癫癫的我....
也许快要消失了....
打击太大了...
我还是无法接受.....
快要开学了...
每个人都回家了...
家里又变得很静....
大家一起相处都有一个星期了...
总会有不舍的心情....
不知不觉又想起...
失去你的时候....
眼泪还是忍不住掉了....
让一切都结束吧!!
我的心灵累了...
刚才一个人背着包包,穿着凉鞋一个人走在街上....
感觉很好,很舒服....
暂时把所有的烦恼和不开心都放在一旁了....
越来越喜欢一个人的感觉了....
但回到现实的生活时,
还是要面对所有的痛苦...
以前那疯疯癫癫的我....
也许快要消失了....
打击太大了...
我还是无法接受.....
快要开学了...
每个人都回家了...
家里又变得很静....
大家一起相处都有一个星期了...
总会有不舍的心情....
不知不觉又想起...
失去你的时候....
眼泪还是忍不住掉了....
让一切都结束吧!!
我的心灵累了...
i believe i can do it
很矛盾...
我不知该恨你还是感谢你曾经给我的一切...
你一次又一次hurt我...
每一次的伤害都让不懂为什么...
很不甘心...
不开心...
无法表达心中的情绪...
每天都"开心"过生活...
累了...
几时才可以脱离心中所有的伤心...
当回原来的我...
要考试了....
还蛮担心...
还是无法振作...
读书的心还是回不来...
老毛病又回来了...
不想出来见人,只想要永久在自己的房...
躺在自己的bed才是最comfortable.....
haiz...
住在penang island有十年了...
也有感情了....
曾经希望毕业后可以回到那边过生活...
可是一切都变了...
2009 & 2010发生太多不愉快的事了...
感觉那边不再拥有我的家了...
离我远远而去了...
好想离开这些不愉快的地方....
心中的伤心快把我逼疯了...
很怕自己撑不下了....
但我会try my best撑到年尾.....
我相信我可以!!!!!
我不知该恨你还是感谢你曾经给我的一切...
你一次又一次hurt我...
每一次的伤害都让不懂为什么...
很不甘心...
不开心...
无法表达心中的情绪...
每天都"开心"过生活...
累了...
几时才可以脱离心中所有的伤心...
当回原来的我...
要考试了....
还蛮担心...
还是无法振作...
读书的心还是回不来...
老毛病又回来了...
不想出来见人,只想要永久在自己的房...
躺在自己的bed才是最comfortable.....
haiz...
住在penang island有十年了...
也有感情了....
曾经希望毕业后可以回到那边过生活...
可是一切都变了...
2009 & 2010发生太多不愉快的事了...
感觉那边不再拥有我的家了...
离我远远而去了...
好想离开这些不愉快的地方....
心中的伤心快把我逼疯了...
很怕自己撑不下了....
但我会try my best撑到年尾.....
我相信我可以!!!!!
Friday, February 19, 2010
眼泪....
昨晚哭累就睡了...
昨天和家人去看"72家租客"后,
心情依然一样,不能恢复....
心情好复杂....
不知要什么....
经过几个月的伤心后,
前几个星期才恢复正常,快乐的生活....
原以为没事了...
怎么知道这几天又不开心....
还是会因为你的一句话弄到自己不开心...
我很怕又回到以前不开心的生活...
那种生活一点都不好受...
久了也会变傻...
我要快乐!!!
今年是最后一年穿着校服走进校园上课了...
开学前说好要好好享受今年...
可是一切都不能如愿以尝...
好想要快点毕业...
离开这里的一切...
开始新生活....
太多的原因让我有这种想法了...
可是一切都能改变...
希望有一天能打消这个念头...
开心地享受最后一年...
昨天和家人去看"72家租客"后,
心情依然一样,不能恢复....
心情好复杂....
不知要什么....
经过几个月的伤心后,
前几个星期才恢复正常,快乐的生活....
原以为没事了...
怎么知道这几天又不开心....
还是会因为你的一句话弄到自己不开心...
我很怕又回到以前不开心的生活...
那种生活一点都不好受...
久了也会变傻...
我要快乐!!!
今年是最后一年穿着校服走进校园上课了...
开学前说好要好好享受今年...
可是一切都不能如愿以尝...
好想要快点毕业...
离开这里的一切...
开始新生活....
太多的原因让我有这种想法了...
可是一切都能改变...
希望有一天能打消这个念头...
开心地享受最后一年...
Thursday, February 18, 2010
回忆.....
前晚手机中virus,
表姐不知怎么搞,把memory card里所有的memory'弄丢'了...
非常生气,伤心...
我没有生气任何人...
也不是care我和他之间的memories没有了...
我生气我自己在心情低落时还会第一个想到他...
当时很想把所有的事情都告诉他....
想得到他的安慰...
决定要把对他的感觉忘了....
只当朋友看待...
但有时还是做不到...
几个月里的改变,以为已经习惯没有他了....
听到love song不会再掉眼泪...
原来都只是一时的心情
也许我还需要时间吧...
我会继续努力....
很多东西都可以放了,但心里还会有个结...
有很多的不懂,疑问....
或许我的不懂对你来说都不重要,都已经过去了...
但你不知道这些不懂困扰了我很多个月...
知道这一切不懂后可以让我更开心...
不懂....
明知道自己的华语不好,有语病...
但还是坚持用华语写blog...
虽然很想让你知道这一切...
bt我选择了用你不懂的language....
写blog不是想要炫耀或挽留什么...
只是想当自己...
曾经因为你忘了自己....
失去方向....
现在一直不断地找回自己....
我会努力.....
表姐不知怎么搞,把memory card里所有的memory'弄丢'了...
非常生气,伤心...
我没有生气任何人...
也不是care我和他之间的memories没有了...
我生气我自己在心情低落时还会第一个想到他...
当时很想把所有的事情都告诉他....
想得到他的安慰...
决定要把对他的感觉忘了....
只当朋友看待...
但有时还是做不到...
几个月里的改变,以为已经习惯没有他了....
听到love song不会再掉眼泪...
原来都只是一时的心情
也许我还需要时间吧...
我会继续努力....
很多东西都可以放了,但心里还会有个结...
有很多的不懂,疑问....
或许我的不懂对你来说都不重要,都已经过去了...
但你不知道这些不懂困扰了我很多个月...
知道这一切不懂后可以让我更开心...
不懂....
明知道自己的华语不好,有语病...
但还是坚持用华语写blog...
虽然很想让你知道这一切...
bt我选择了用你不懂的language....
写blog不是想要炫耀或挽留什么...
只是想当自己...
曾经因为你忘了自己....
失去方向....
现在一直不断地找回自己....
我会努力.....
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